brokensilence

i'm sticking with being friends with animals.

-discarded like a piece of trash-



anyway

off to vegas tomorrow.... and leaving for good soon after that.


happy fucking birthday to me.... yahoo

have to spend half of tomorrow at the dmv getting my license renewed. not my idea of a good day off.

thursday... off to vegas for the big 3 0. cheese

may... off on an alaskan cruise for 8 days with my mom. double cheese

is this how 30 is going to be?

last night.... the only straight guy at a gay event... a 22 year old replica of someone i know... hot hot hot... cornered me in the womens bathroom.... and.... wow!

i guess at almost 30, i've still got it

a little ego boost is just what the card reader ordered yesterday...

today... back to the same game... but with a little dance in my step

beautiful, broken
my crystal fingers.

went to the beach with the mutt today...was fucking beautiful. he was so cute splashing in the water for the first time. i walked along listening to khonner on my headphones, watching the water.... i felt like i was in a movie. it was nice.

then i had to take bowie to the doggy wash because a 106 pound dog...
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didn't do much today...

might go to the costume ball that is tonight... i love getting dressed up like that, but it takes so much effort... then i get there and am bored not sure if i can muster the energy.

i have more queer as folk to watch (yes... i am addicted to gay soft core porn... but who isn't really )

tired

sad

but ok

bourbon is my friend

anyone up for a movie this weekend?

i peeled off the scab on my brand today... i got it all in one piece, a perfect heart of scab... there is something nice about it. i think it would be a nice gift to give someone (pictures are up)

then... i threw up. i don't know, maybe it was the sensation of pulling off the burnt skin, or what it meant to me....
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long day today... 11 hours of work without a break.

i usually go out on monday nights, but i haven't gone in 3 weeks. need a break i guess.

bourbon, a bath, and a book for tonight.

just found out i'm going to vegas for my birthday... i have the best friend ever!

i'm strangely at peace today... lonely, but at peace

who knows about...
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well... this day didn't go well... going to have a drink and go to bed....

tomorrow will be better ... i hope

my loft is sparkling clean though (i clean when i'm down)

boy am i ready for it to be a mess

i love my animals

zilah, mr. potato head, and bowie keep me going

awoke from a nightmare....

but ready to leave it behind and start anew...

the tears are welling in my eyes again
i need twenty big buckets to catch them in
twenty pretty girls to carry them down
twenty big holes to bury them in....