brokenglassheart

T- 34 hours until departure and things are getting too complicated in my head. people in my life are just NOW like " oh, i want all of your time and i wanna hang out with you now that you're leaving." i feel like i'm getting pulled in all these different directions when all i want is to hang out with 2 people who mean a lot to me. the thing that really sucks is that these people had a lot of time to call me up and say "hey, let's hang out" and they wait til i'm almost two days away from leaving this town. enough about that. things are just really wierd right now and i'm just trying to make it better, but it's hard when you feel like you don't belong somewhere. it's just a matter of time before i can feel some comfort again. at least i know how long i have to wait........ 34 hours!! right now i'm just doing all of my laundry and going through all of my things so i can start packing them up. i'm so exctited to see thrice in concert tomorrow. that's all i can think about right now. nice way remember the city of "angels".

song of the day: thrice - stare at the sun
lyrics:
i sit here clutching useless lists keys to doors that don't exist i crack my teeth on pearls i tear into the history jusst show me hwat it means to me in this world

cause i'm due for a miracle i'm waiting for a sign i'll stare straight into the sun and i won't close my eyes 'til i understand or go blind

i see the parts but not the whole i study saints and scholars both but no perfect plan unfurls do i trust my heart or just my mind why is truth so hard to find in this world yeah in this world

'cause i'm due for a miracle i'm waiting for a sign i'll stare straight into the sun and i won't close my eyes 'til i understand or go blind

i know that there's a point i've missed a shrine or stone i haven't kissed a scare that never grazed my wrist a mirror that hasn't met my fist but i can't help feeling that i'm

due for a miracle i'm waiting for the sun i'll stare straight into the sun and i won't close my eyes