brokenglassheart

so i went out with LTrain, bean, jujubee, kristin and derby to fern's last night. not that this is not a fun time, but i just think i need to be doing more with my life right now. i feel so like i'm wading in stagnent waters. i'm not in a band anymore and i can't seem to find stable work right now which is very depressing. i want ot working in a kitchen doing prep cook work. the reason i wanna work in this feild is because i'm going to culinary school soon and i wanna get some "hands - on" experience. somehow i don't feel that going to school is gonna make me feel better about myself. i really wanna persue a career in music, but i wanna be the one making records. it's all i wanna do. i love cooking, but not as much as i love being on stage with a band in front of a crowd playing your heart out. i just don't know anymore. i need some serious inspiration.