Well i think the time in between posts is expanding. I just can't find the time to be on here....or perhaps i've just lost all motivation. Summer has come and so has the drinking. A little too much...i hate it. I wish i could just not drink...i barely have a "great" nite anymore...not to mention being clean of chemicals for just about a year and then 'celebrating' by doing a couple lines. Awesome. Good job on my part. I feel like a complete failure fuck up. ....not to mention just being sorta down on my body image lately. I just feel like...i'm HUGE. and i havn't even gained any weight in the past like..year, but yet i feel quite large. When i'm standing beside friends and such i just feel like i'm 100 pounds more than them... I don't know whats wrong with me. Whenever my boyfriend tells me i'm sexy and stuff, i just feel like he's just saying that cuz he should...some mornings i wake up and i feel gorgeous and skinny, then as soon as i eat something i fucking bloat up like a whale and feel terrible...i think i might just go to the doctor this week and see what i should do about my eating habits...
anyways, wow...way to bitch.
On a brighter note...me and my boy are doing well...havn't drank in 2 weeks. Shouldn't drink ever again if we wanna keep this relationship going.
My friend/sister Lacey is pregnant!! i'm so excited for her
She's only 3 months so she's got a ways yet before she even starts showing but i'm super happy for her...even if she's not 
My dog is getting rediculousy big...and annoying.
I hate work, i want outa it so bad. only 1300 more till my line of credit is paid off and i can take out a business loan and get my fucking store started.
Hmm...what else...fuck i really want to still do my set but...with feeling so huge i don't think i'd be really comfortable doing it...plus i just really don't know how to pose
Sorry for all the ranting but it's late, it's like a million fucking degrees in here and i have a headache..prolly not a good time to post something...
On the brighter side........here's some pics haha...
Me and my Man on top of the bluff at Big Bay
Me and my best bud Amber
Me and an old friend Jude
anyways, wow...way to bitch.
On a brighter note...me and my boy are doing well...havn't drank in 2 weeks. Shouldn't drink ever again if we wanna keep this relationship going.
My friend/sister Lacey is pregnant!! i'm so excited for her
She's only 3 months so she's got a ways yet before she even starts showing but i'm super happy for her...even if she's not
My dog is getting rediculousy big...and annoying.
I hate work, i want outa it so bad. only 1300 more till my line of credit is paid off and i can take out a business loan and get my fucking store started.
Hmm...what else...fuck i really want to still do my set but...with feeling so huge i don't think i'd be really comfortable doing it...plus i just really don't know how to pose
Sorry for all the ranting but it's late, it's like a million fucking degrees in here and i have a headache..prolly not a good time to post something...
On the brighter side........here's some pics haha...
Me and my Man on top of the bluff at Big Bay
Me and my best bud Amber
Me and an old friend Jude