My friend Bekie commited suicide last week.
I'm fucking devastated. We all are.
She was like the last person I expected to do this. She was always so happy and bubbly and everything.
It's fucking scary. How easily a life can be taken away and how much hurt is left for the people left behind.
I still can't believe shes gone. I can't go to the fucking funeral either because I go on holiday THAT day. FFS. So I'll probably never believe that shes gone.
In a way I'm glad I'm not going, after the state I was in when I found out. Now I just feel like it isnt really happening. The funeral will only remind me that it is happening.
It's like nearly exactly a year since Coysh killed himself aswell.
WHY ?!
I dont know how I feel at the minute. Since I found out she committed suicide I'm feeling quite angry. Do they not stop to think about how everyone who is left behind will cope ?! I could NEVER do that to my family. No matter how bad I felt. I'm sorry if that sounds selfish. But being someone who lost their mother when they were 15, I cant even begin to imagine how her family feel when she caused her own death. Its bad enough to come to terms with when they die of other causes.
ARGH. I dont know what to think. I cant think anymore.
I'm fucking devastated. We all are.
She was like the last person I expected to do this. She was always so happy and bubbly and everything.
It's fucking scary. How easily a life can be taken away and how much hurt is left for the people left behind.
I still can't believe shes gone. I can't go to the fucking funeral either because I go on holiday THAT day. FFS. So I'll probably never believe that shes gone.
In a way I'm glad I'm not going, after the state I was in when I found out. Now I just feel like it isnt really happening. The funeral will only remind me that it is happening.
It's like nearly exactly a year since Coysh killed himself aswell.
WHY ?!
I dont know how I feel at the minute. Since I found out she committed suicide I'm feeling quite angry. Do they not stop to think about how everyone who is left behind will cope ?! I could NEVER do that to my family. No matter how bad I felt. I'm sorry if that sounds selfish. But being someone who lost their mother when they were 15, I cant even begin to imagine how her family feel when she caused her own death. Its bad enough to come to terms with when they die of other causes.
ARGH. I dont know what to think. I cant think anymore.
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Sincerely, Ron.