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So...Ii went to the doctors...I know fuck all more than I did before I went. I had yet more tests...and thats about it. My sister is now fuming because they dont seem to be taking any of this seriously, and now wants to come to the doctors with me. That cant really happen, because there is some things that I dont want her to know...that happened in the past. Hmmm... I hate keeping things from her cos we're so close, but there are some things you just cant tell people.
So...basically, looks like am gonna have to put up with it until they get my test results back negative again...and then back to square one.

I'm back in sunny ol' Wigan now...oh the joys Its actually nice to be home and see my family. I just miss the nights out in Manchester. I havent done much really...just watched lotsa films with my pa and done some christmas shopping....fuck, I hate christmas shopping. Although I think I've done pretty well this year...just spent a fortune yet again. I just have one of my sisters left to buy for, and I want to buy her smething nice because she always spends a fortune on everybody else. Shame theres no boyfriend to buy for though
I attempted to wrap more presents earlier...it stresses me out like nothing else ! I HATE wrapping presents, I must be the most useless person in the world...
And then I got even more stressed because after I left to go and answer the door, I came back to find that my bastard dog had eaten half of my dinner !!

Hmmm...so yeah, I'm pretty bred right now which is why I'm blabbering on here. I'm also pissed off about a few things...its my mums anniversary tomorrow...4 years. Thats bad enough, but the shitty thing is is that it all seems to much longer than that. I feel like I'm forgetting who she was and that scares the shit out of me. Despite all that I still remember the day it all happened like it was yesterday. I guess it will always be like that...it was the worst day of my life.
After talking about all that it sounds stupid to go on to talking about fucking men of all things...I really dont know why I bother anymore. I guess I should just stop looking...then I might actually find something. The guy I like right now has taken to ignoring me so it would seem. So it looks as though hes another one I'm not good enough for. Fuck it, I dont know what to do anymore. I can do without the emotional shit right now...and I always have my vibrator

Hmmmw ell after all that rambling, I've just realised that Steps are on the TV so I either have to go kill myself now, or switch it off.

Have a fun...and festive week...be good.

Kevin Spacey fucking owns.