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Why do I always end up writing in here when I'm bored ? Hmm...

I have to go to the doctors tomorrow cos I have something very nasty going on inside me...they just dont know what it is yet. And I'm pretty scared about it to be honest.

I cant decide if I'm looking forward to going home or not...my friends have taken to ignoring me once again...the ones that are in Manchester with me anyway...so, fuck them basically. I have friends at home that actually want to see me. I can play childish games aswell.

Ad came to visit on Monday and went home today...which was nice. We went out with my uni mate Jemma last night to Satans...and me and Jem were a tad drunk...ha...suprise there eh ?
It pisses me off going in that place...too many skinny, pretty people that think they own the place...grrr. Men piss me off too...I'm good enough for them until someone better comes along. So overall I'm just never good enough for anyone...Meh..have you noticed I'm not in an overly cheerful mood today ?

I'm just fed up...and feel like shit. And its supposed to be fucking christmas...I dunno...my mums anniversary is coming up next week..maybe thats why I'm like this. I'm always subconciously like this when shit like this comes up..

And I desperately need to go christmas shopping..with no money. That should be interesting..

Grr...hope everyone else is feeling a bit more festive than I am at the minute null