brocklee

Im trying to get over it but i cant.

Our eyes met at work the other day as she was going up the escalator. She tells me she wants to talk..
I raise my red bull to my mouth and walk away towards my kitchen. Hiding my heart behind my work.
a girl im doing a photoshoot with next week came by to visit me at work, she tried to kiss me but i wasnt really feelin it. its been waay too long since her and i have seen each other she asked what was wrong..i told her i was stressed out over some stuff she then asked if we could we could go out for tea and dinner after i got home from work.
I love indian food!
She made me feel so much better about what happened and gave me the same advice as you guys have given me ..thanks everyone!
I needed to get up in the kitchen uber early to unlock everything i called it a night. i dropped her off and she kissed me nibbling on my lower lip ..mmm curried lips..haha
6am this morning i get the longest text message from liv heres what it said:
So i need to be honest with you about sunday...first of all i had too muchfun on saturday night at that christmas party.
Sunday morning i completely forgot about our plans and to top it all off....i could not find my cell phone anywhere.
That is the only place i have your number stored.
Needless to say my phone was at my friends house i could not get a hold of you. I was going to talk to you yesterday ..but i had drama and left work early.
You have every right to be upset at me ..i am nomally not a flake. i am so embarrassed and so sorry for flaking. Its not like me to do that..i would have least called you to cancel,but had no way of reaching you. Plus my car broke down this weekend because of that accident i was in...long story so thats what happened i was too chicken to talk to you. I was going to wait but i cant.
Page me today at work if you like . I miss you and I love u more...Liv

We had our break together smoke filled our spaces
i got all emo so i kissed her on her lips and walked away back into the kitchen

I dont know how or what to feel about her anymore..she wants to hook up this saturday but i dont want to set myself up again.

the girl im doing a shoot with next week calls me today right as im about to get comfy in my bed. She asked if i wanted to have tea with her tonight at FARLEYS in potrero hill
then asking what type of flowers i liked...Ive never had any girl ask me that before....
i told her id turn into a pumpkin if i were out past my bed/work curfew so i had to take a raincheck.

before i hang up she tells me she despite all the emoting she had a great time going out
She felt and that her and i should get together more often...