Happy New Year, everyone! 
Over the past three weeks, I've been to the gym a total of six times. Not only that, but I seem to have become addicted to green-influenced sex...which means PIGGING OUT on junk food when the munchies kick in at like 2am. Seeing as I'm already far from confident about my body...this is a bad scene every way you look at it.
I know, I know - everyone should love their body and we come in different shapes and sizes and I'm perfect just the way I am and BLAH BLAH BLAH...but for fuck's sake....I've struggled with my body image my whole life - you'd think I'd grow more accepting of myself with age, but it gets worse every day! I mean, I'm not a gym addict or bulemic or on Hydroxycut or anything...but I can honestly say that negative thoughts about my body occupy my mind above all else. That doesn't seem healthy to me.
What kills me the most is that I'm the biggest advocate against shit like this - I'm like a therapist to all of my friends, I have a positive outlook on life and others' health and happiness...I'm a freakin' Certified Personal Trainer and Fitness Instructor for the love of god!
Ugh.
It all seems very trivial, I know. And I'm certainly not looking for any pity here - sometimes I just have to let it all out. SG Therapy, you know?
I hope everyone had an awesome New Year's Eve...here's to a HAPPY and HEALTHY 2004. I'm having a blast on this site and with you guys - and I hope to see a lot more of all of you in the coming year.
MUCH Love!
Over the past three weeks, I've been to the gym a total of six times. Not only that, but I seem to have become addicted to green-influenced sex...which means PIGGING OUT on junk food when the munchies kick in at like 2am. Seeing as I'm already far from confident about my body...this is a bad scene every way you look at it.
I know, I know - everyone should love their body and we come in different shapes and sizes and I'm perfect just the way I am and BLAH BLAH BLAH...but for fuck's sake....I've struggled with my body image my whole life - you'd think I'd grow more accepting of myself with age, but it gets worse every day! I mean, I'm not a gym addict or bulemic or on Hydroxycut or anything...but I can honestly say that negative thoughts about my body occupy my mind above all else. That doesn't seem healthy to me.
What kills me the most is that I'm the biggest advocate against shit like this - I'm like a therapist to all of my friends, I have a positive outlook on life and others' health and happiness...I'm a freakin' Certified Personal Trainer and Fitness Instructor for the love of god!
Ugh.
It all seems very trivial, I know. And I'm certainly not looking for any pity here - sometimes I just have to let it all out. SG Therapy, you know?
I hope everyone had an awesome New Year's Eve...here's to a HAPPY and HEALTHY 2004. I'm having a blast on this site and with you guys - and I hope to see a lot more of all of you in the coming year.
MUCH Love!
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I totally understand about the body image thing though...I think about it all the time. I try not to let people know...and be confident...but it's hard. I have always struggled with it...looking at pics when I was younger and smaller...it sucks. I am planning on loosing weight this year...but at the same time...what makes this year different...fuck all...
i wish i could not care...but it's impossible.
Happy New Year! Its the year of love. So eat right, exercise, and love yourself.