i cant believe it!
i feel so UN_appreciated! so betrayed neglected...the list goes on.. i mean i worked forever on that painting for my cousin and i go an post it early this morning on myspace then go to sleep. then when i wake i see she has added the tags and even re-loaded it to her fucking page and made it her default without a bloody comment! she didnt even say THANKYOU IN THE FUCKING CAPTION! it said 'im a mermaid' im a fucking mermaid?! Jesus fuck why have i been poring my heart and soul into every photograph and photoedit and damned painting! for someone who cant even say they like what i did for them!for Nothing! i did kinda freaked out because she got comments on hers! and i still have none! i made it! and those people are(were) my friends too! and didn't think it would hert me to do that?! Jesus fuck i told em all there dead to me and to go fuck themselves! i am seriously in total remorse and am question whether ther is a real point to being alive? i really dont think there is. i mean i know no one gives a fuck about me now...i get NO satisfaction but my weed. witch just makes me less sick. no hugs no comfort no one fucking cares! Kristie yousto care... mike yousto. but now he wont let me near him? i mean if people keep pushing people away? why do it over n fucking over? why go through the hassle of seeing some fuckass who just takes my money to give me something i need to fucking LIVE! why do i do this?? why do i try to eat and why do i try to live? i get nothing but assholes...
its just everyone's always harassing me for money i dont have and i never have any money because there is no money out there for me. i am constantly being screwed over because im 'nice'? i think its cuz im not a sell out...but maybe its because im just stupid. or suborn. both. because i like to do what i love for free... its a passion
i wish i was animating...then i can at least sell copy's and maybe have someone else do that for me. the selling part. im no business man...i hate...despise thinking about money. alls i wanted was her tosay something to me about it. thats really ALL i wanted!
she really made me cry today...
im sorry im venting here. i love SG and so many of you are so kind to me here! if only Sg was an island we could all just live on together...i suppose the Internets all ive got...and kiwi
im sorry but people are so fucked up
i wish i had a man...or maybe a woman?
its like impossible to find a woman im actually interested in tho...and visa versa...
someone here with me would make it less bad...
i feel so UN_appreciated! so betrayed neglected...the list goes on.. i mean i worked forever on that painting for my cousin and i go an post it early this morning on myspace then go to sleep. then when i wake i see she has added the tags and even re-loaded it to her fucking page and made it her default without a bloody comment! she didnt even say THANKYOU IN THE FUCKING CAPTION! it said 'im a mermaid' im a fucking mermaid?! Jesus fuck why have i been poring my heart and soul into every photograph and photoedit and damned painting! for someone who cant even say they like what i did for them!for Nothing! i did kinda freaked out because she got comments on hers! and i still have none! i made it! and those people are(were) my friends too! and didn't think it would hert me to do that?! Jesus fuck i told em all there dead to me and to go fuck themselves! i am seriously in total remorse and am question whether ther is a real point to being alive? i really dont think there is. i mean i know no one gives a fuck about me now...i get NO satisfaction but my weed. witch just makes me less sick. no hugs no comfort no one fucking cares! Kristie yousto care... mike yousto. but now he wont let me near him? i mean if people keep pushing people away? why do it over n fucking over? why go through the hassle of seeing some fuckass who just takes my money to give me something i need to fucking LIVE! why do i do this?? why do i try to eat and why do i try to live? i get nothing but assholes...
its just everyone's always harassing me for money i dont have and i never have any money because there is no money out there for me. i am constantly being screwed over because im 'nice'? i think its cuz im not a sell out...but maybe its because im just stupid. or suborn. both. because i like to do what i love for free... its a passion
i wish i was animating...then i can at least sell copy's and maybe have someone else do that for me. the selling part. im no business man...i hate...despise thinking about money. alls i wanted was her tosay something to me about it. thats really ALL i wanted!
she really made me cry today...im sorry im venting here. i love SG and so many of you are so kind to me here! if only Sg was an island we could all just live on together...i suppose the Internets all ive got...and kiwi
im sorry but people are so fucked up
i wish i had a man...or maybe a woman?
its like impossible to find a woman im actually interested in tho...and visa versa...
someone here with me would make it less bad...
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