brittymon

ive been noticing ALOT of copy cat sets...like it would be okay if they were good. eh whatever.. its just there exactly like another set on Sg but worse(lighting, photo quality, bad tattoos, awkward poses and faces) i guess i understand loving the shit you produce...
i usually just flush it and start new after i take a good step back and see everything i do is shit. it actually helps tho with making me improve my quality.(of my creativity, originality, and photo skills)
i think im going madd... i got some medicine but i spent 6 and a half hours in a hospital to get it, they almost held me because 'i may be a threat to myself' but you know...i will aloways be and anyone who takes 5 minutes to talk to me would understand. you would be too if you felt everything i do and experience every failure and discrimination and judgment...ah well being dead is that much easier... but you know im in this state of mind lately were i just wanted to get my body in better condition. i know no one understands really, you couldn't possibly. especially how i cant even explain how i feel without a huge fight...
i just wish i had a good body and an average face...id be so happy with that.
ah well my luck(or whatever youd call it) is just getting worse...its like im plummeting into a trench of darkness drowning in this economic crises.. this depression of civilization. i actually was refused...or discriminated against for being a diabetic...the job was being a whore...i cant even get a job jacking men off because im too much of a FUCKING liability! i mean Jesus fuck McDonalds wont hire me? i cant even be a whore?i fucking NEED MONEY!! WHAT THE FUCK AM I ALIVE FOR!?to be in constant pain and misery? i mean Jesus fuck... i really truly have no worth...i feel like a piece of shit...