brittymon

when i noticed the site changed i started to look around and then when i realized everything i did for the last 3-4 years was completely based on the fact that i wanted to be a SG so badly and i always thought i was so one of them...i cried when i realized i have failed my self so badly...especially when i look in the mirror i see such a strong woman whos been through so much and i feel i have nothing but my life its self to show for it... my rotting body rotting 3 times faster then everyone else.. my scar tissue getting bigger everyday from all the shots i take. my feel getting fatter so fat theyve grown 3 shoue sizes in the last 2 years. only a few months ago my fav heels fit fine and now wont go on my feet...it herts me so to think of how disfigured i am no. im an artist and im looseing my vision! im gonna loose my feet and i cant even afford the medisen and right food to keep me well. mike keeps me awake with his snoring and we never ever have sex.
now ive broken my self into a fetus again...i have no job and i dont even have a normal sleeping pattern. im so lonely now.. i just feel so lost

i also drew this...
http://i94.photobucket.com/albums/l111/brittymon37/DSC_0002frMedium.jpg