brittymon

i havent made any new sets.
i went to vermont.
and i was gonna do some in the snow but i had the feeling it too would just be a big waste of my time and effort like the last sets. plus it was very difficult to make time. its hard to find good help.
i need insporation
i feel like im chokeing here

you think harry potters maybe an okay theme?
i dont think id exactly use it as a theme exactly but just look alot like a cute nerd reds and oranges with my new hogwarts shirt.

im also feeling very discouraged because im back to being a short chubby cow lady. and they want skinny bitches....or perfect ones. thats all i seee getting accepted. lame ass sets. they hardly seem creative. its all about the womans body.... im like the wrong kind of shape i think. ive got small to avearge nothing special brests...and im short n wide and my ass has gotten huge...so its hard to get just anyone make me look good on film.

i need a trained profehsinal whom can capture my beauty...er
my minds like a giant seasaw...back n firth back n forth.
i just cant get my self to make any real decisions now.
hesitateing procrastinateing discriminatreing..,myself. whetever you call it... i seem to be in a rut