brittymon

so im in vegas now...nice fun town for insominacks...if your 21. but im not! so this royally sucks. before when id come here videogames and buffets were enough....well not really. but the point is.im so close yet so far...the worst thing about this town is how it makes me feel inferior...i hate me tiny ass boobs there too small to do anythhing with...pointless a's ugly too. i wish i had at least a c cup...then thered be actual cleveage...instead if crushing them so unnaturally and painfully just to look like a half decent woman. i must fix them!
i dont care about being superfiahal and haveing plastic tits...i just want tits...my ass is so large for a chick my size i look completely outt of porportion...i hate it! its driveing me madd....im no lady. i was raised my my dad...a woman hater. and i realise he even hates me for it.... its saddening and frustrateing. i wish i had a mommy...i wish i had so woman to tell me...show me how to be...because im serously such a barbarian...i have more balls then most men ive met. its the truth...i also want to get this fucking scar dog bite fat looking shit off my leg. its unfare that i cant wear short stuffs cuz of it...i feel very not good enough for myself....
so ive decided i need me a nice rich older man who has good business skills.ha ha ha ha ha yeah right.
i met the hottest dealer. he had my fav...thick black square glasses and he was interesting...he was certainally a sole i connected with. he was funny trying to get me to talk to his younger buddy who just lost his girl....when he told me how old he was i was shocked he was over 30...man i guess it doesnt matter age...besides i aloways thought those dudes with the hot young girls have to be pretty awsome for a reason... im really just talking for myself here....i mean my business is my business but if i make it public i dont want pitty or nothin...im just saying the truth...what ive been feelin...dwelling on the last few days...
i look like a damn red neck...im actulally a little burned...on my sholders and neck...i got some tan at the lake...the burn will turn tan in like a week...but damn does it suck wearing a bra now...
im almost outta pot too!there wont be nothin' for my ride home...unless i save...
these hotle voices are mekeing me paranoid...i keep thiinking my dads comeing back...but its just the drunkers in the next room being loud n fornicateing...thats vegas for ya.
yeah so far i havent even made it to the pool once...dont care...i can see it from my window, i had enough sun for the year thankyou...
i hope smoke calls me back soon. hes the only friend ive got in town...its pretty cool. hes like shooting some movie out here, i know he works with the cameras n shit...
so some dude ripped off me n a friend of mine...he gave us some fake cocane. i just wanted some more pot man....but he had to trust the fucker. when i told him i didnt trust him he wigged out. that was the most sketch thing ive experianced... heh heh chicken...but serously i knew it! meh everything out heres a damn gambol... i just wish i was considered a real adult...its like im only half of one or something...
i feel i need some nice clothes...something that makes me pretty...i wanna keep my cool though...so i remain poor n cheep...jeens and a oversized black happy noodle boy shirt. im such a kid. i need to find a life....one were i have a job n a car and someone to love me...one day...one day...