Monday May 28, 2007

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i deleted my myspace. or tryed
so i deleted everything that had to do with me...because i wont be here much longer anyways...
id like to be anywere but here
feel anything but this

im surrounded by jelusy and lies...so many lies from everyone
ill never speek to that bastard again!
and so much for what i actually cared about...so much for that...im such a fuck up its unbelievable...
i just dont think
i never do
his mom said that was some sort of symptom...it makes cence...but i cant use it as an excuse
because i know ive aloways been worthless

hungry

low blood sugar

heh i dont care

i hope i die...sometimes...im just being depressed and irrational...dont take me seroulsy...

i know ill find someone who will love me for me...who will think more like me...heck maybe i should actually try older guys...i hear there more mature...
or maybe a nice woman...sexy and whatnot...sensitive...actually has emotions too...to relate too! uh...i dont know what i want...i just want...
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hipsta:
yes, i noticed you deleted your myspace, thats why i come here. youll never talk to him again? i wish you had done that when i asked you to, but now you realize it. and for finding someone else...more mature? you might want to grow up yourself first. If you had any maturity yourself you would have been foward with me and not have pussy footed around and let it blow up in your face. Next time you go into a relationship, remember this one, learn from ours, learn how to treat people better, learn to be truthful because you cant get anywhere with out trust. I really cant believe you didnt tell me things, you always told me how you were proud of your blunt honesty, aparently not.
lyte88:
wow that's pretty harsh from hipsta. No one ever has to grow up ever! Life's way to short to take bullshit from people. If you want to be immature then do it. And for finding someone you like/love etc... I believe that there is a soulmate for everyone out there, you don't have to be with anyone be single love it enjoy and when you meet someone you love you'll know and you'll want to treat them good and you'll want to never lie or hurt them.

I'm lucky I found my soulmate when I was 16 and he lives in another country, but we did the long distance realtionship for 3 yrs and trust me it can be done. But I knew he was ment for me that's why it worked out.

And your art is beautiful just like you. Your going to do amazing things in life trust me. And if you ever need a break come to ontario your 19 so you can drink/gamble legally soooo just gamble away your worries like me lol. smile

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