brittymon

if theres a holiday i hate more then mothersday...i dono. fuck this day. fuck my mom...that skitsofrenic meth hore! last weekend she punched me in the face...so i threw all her clotheing on the lawn and told her that shes dead to me...then she made up som insane crap about how she loves my sister more then me....I dont even have a sister!...so after all that i decided i like to collect mother figures...older women that actually love me...oh i should call michell and amnett...there the lesbeans i met in the hospital...real awsome ladies, they make me happy...i should totaully roll them a nice blunt n go over there and play pool and whatnot over there....i was invited...amnett was getting diallisis...she seems to be alot like me...being dibedic..same feelings same symptoms...same actions...same habbits...or maybe i should go give mother mary a visit today...she aloways helped me in times of need...let it be.

okay anough about my mother figures...i really have to get my brain organised...ive spent my whole life trying to beat this brain into stupidness...trying to not care...my dictroctiveness...its very pointed back twards myself...
what makes a person violent???because im pretty damn violent....i think...i think its not being touched and loved as a child. because i wasnt.
there was this crazy experiment in like russia years back...it took three babies...and another three babies....
the first three were given nothing but love and attention...those babies florished...the others fed and everthing exactly tyhe same...just not touched and loved and whatnot...they died within the month...all three of them...
i think that proves something interesting...but im not sure exactly what.

applying for disability...i dont have enough money...im fucked when it comes to takeing care of myself! i mean insulins like 100 bucks a bottle....and it only lasts like a month...i need at least two different types....oh bladie blah....but if i qulify...witch it kindof crap...because my grans claiming in like 12% skitsofrenic for this crap...meh...whatever...maybe i am crazy? whats it to me if i am? i mean....heh thats just stupid. i dont hear shit...i see shit..ha ha ha aw man...okay maybe just a little bit....they say im gonna go mad around age 26 or somethin....at least i dont do meth....