britan

I am heartbroken.
I took Mylo to the vet today.
At first she said he had blockage with his liver, and that she could un-drain it and a keep him over night.
For the cost of 500 dollars.
So I left him there, and went home.
Then I get a call from her.
She called to say that it is actually his kidneys.
One kidney is enlarged and ready to burst.
And th second kidney is a quarter of the size it should be, and more than likely does not work.
I just know what was going to happen.
She told me I should put him to sleep, and that it was really the only thing I could do.
I am heartbroken.
I went to see my baby for the last time.
He was in so much pain, and I was so sad.
I kissed his head and held his paws as they put him to rest.
Mylo was my baby; my first baby.
I can't begin to explain how much I loved that cat.
I am heartbroken, and I lost my boy, who was only 2 years old.
I know he is in a better place, where I will see him again someday.
I know he is no longer in pain and is no longer suffering, and that he is happy and watching over me.

But its just so unfair.
I don't have any motivation for anything right now.
I don't want to move, I don't want to think.
It just hurts so fucking bad.
I am heartbroken.

Rest in Peace my Mylo Baby.
You are forever in my heart <3