So - I've been having a bit of a difficult time lately with my friend who said she didn't want to be my friend and started drama on facebook, blah, blah, blah. (This is all on past posts, so I won't rehash it out here).
So anyway, her dad died two days ago. She texted me saying she wants to be my friend again and talk about it.
1) Even though I wanted to be petty (I'm sorry, I'm human, I had a lot of painful zingers I WANTED to say), but I didn't. I talked with her yesterday for a long time on the phone and sent a few sympathy cards to her and her family.
2) I had a really bad thought when we were fighting and basically this is it come true, so now I feel bad, but I know I don't have supernatural powers that made it happen. I just feel my typical catholic guilt about wishing pain to someone and then it happens.
I don't know what's going to happen to be honest, it's just all been a big bummer for me lately.
Then last night I had a dream about saints Christopher and Isabella - I'm trying to figure out what that means...
I just think I'm worn down from being sick. I'm feeling physically better, but my emotions are still taking a toll on me (even all of my piercings are inflamed!) - HOWEVER:
1) Spirit Walk is coming up - I have to get on writing down my speech, I think I'll do that later today.
2) Measure 4 Measure rehearsal starts tonight.
These things should perk me up!
*sigh* Wouldn't it just be nice to know enough of the future that everything is going to be okay? I tend to flip between thinking my whole future is in front of me and everything is possible and thinking this is all my life will ever be and I should stop trying to reach so high. I just want a job or school to write me back so I can be at ease. Or know what I can physically do to make my dreams a reality.
I guess we all struggle with stuff like this...
So anyway, her dad died two days ago. She texted me saying she wants to be my friend again and talk about it.
1) Even though I wanted to be petty (I'm sorry, I'm human, I had a lot of painful zingers I WANTED to say), but I didn't. I talked with her yesterday for a long time on the phone and sent a few sympathy cards to her and her family.
2) I had a really bad thought when we were fighting and basically this is it come true, so now I feel bad, but I know I don't have supernatural powers that made it happen. I just feel my typical catholic guilt about wishing pain to someone and then it happens.
I don't know what's going to happen to be honest, it's just all been a big bummer for me lately.
Then last night I had a dream about saints Christopher and Isabella - I'm trying to figure out what that means...
I just think I'm worn down from being sick. I'm feeling physically better, but my emotions are still taking a toll on me (even all of my piercings are inflamed!) - HOWEVER:
1) Spirit Walk is coming up - I have to get on writing down my speech, I think I'll do that later today.
2) Measure 4 Measure rehearsal starts tonight.
These things should perk me up!
*sigh* Wouldn't it just be nice to know enough of the future that everything is going to be okay? I tend to flip between thinking my whole future is in front of me and everything is possible and thinking this is all my life will ever be and I should stop trying to reach so high. I just want a job or school to write me back so I can be at ease. Or know what I can physically do to make my dreams a reality.
I guess we all struggle with stuff like this...
Glad to hear you're talking with your friend again. Sorry to hear about the inflamed piercings (ouch!). But I am looking forward to seeing the Spirit Walk!