Ugh - I hate graduation weekend... Now I know why my parents never attended any of mine. Which retrospectively I'm happy about. And is it SO wrong of me to have an evil little smirk that they made everyone sit outside in the rain. *snicker* Yes... I'm bad, I know.
And it's not as if I DIDN'T graduate, I did, I just hate my experience so much I don't really want to celebrate it with all of the other morons sitting for 4 hours in the rain. I just took my second master's degree essentially raised both middle fingers towards my department and said "There's no PhD in the world worth this!" Seriously, if you don't want me here, there's only so long I can push back until the bureaucracy of the system ties my hands into never completing my PhD and taking all this money I don't have. I consider it lucky I got the master's and ran.
Good point of this weekend: I worked 16 hours in a row, didn't have to sit in the rain, got to play on SG, got to knit, read a bunch of plays, got free food AND one of my bosses thought I was 19 (basically a rising junior) which I got a kick out of.
Bad point of the weekend: One person I've known for the past 3 years and who is graduating this weekend walked by my office and snarkily said "Oh how the mighty have fallen." I'm like WTF? Where have I fallen to? I mean, I'm basically sitting around getting paid with the keys to the entire campus and I'm somehow beneath you? This is a person I took in and let stay with me when no one else would, a person I bought furniture for because his own parents wouldn't do it - I'm not saying I regret doing anything for people when they have tough times, I was happy to do it - but seriously, people suck.
I think that it just bothers me that people think they can hurt me because they deny me things. Seriously, you can't hurt me, it's not that I don't care, because I would be lying if I said I didn't care what people think about me, I do. I just don't need your fucking permission okay? I'm going to get my PhD, I'm going to do the play the way I want to do it, I'm going to get out of this stupid town and get a good job one day. Don't think just because I am what you see that you see or know everything - douchebags.
I mean, I really feel discriminated against in school lately because the past two years have been personally hard on me: my mom got cancer, my sister got really sick, everyone but my dad lost their jobs, we lost a lot of money because of my mom's cancer treatments, I got into a terrible car crash... I mean, forgive me that I couldn't do things in the most perfect or timely manner for you. I don't have to go into my life story to do a good job now. I'm not going to genuflect all up and down main street begging forgiveness and for you to take me back into your group. Stop being all high and mighty and be understanding, and seriously if you don't want me to be in your group - I won't be. I'll start my own and do my own thing. Not that I think I'm awesome, but I seriously think you've lost a great asset if you lose my alliance. I value loyalty and if you're not there for me to understand why I'm not around when my life is crap - then I'll be compassionate when it happens to you, but I'm not going to go out of my way for you anymore.
I don't mean to be so much "My way or the highway" lately - I just don't feel no one else is going to give me a shot if I don't make my own opportunities.
What about you? Has anything like this happened to you? Stories please!
And it's not as if I DIDN'T graduate, I did, I just hate my experience so much I don't really want to celebrate it with all of the other morons sitting for 4 hours in the rain. I just took my second master's degree essentially raised both middle fingers towards my department and said "There's no PhD in the world worth this!" Seriously, if you don't want me here, there's only so long I can push back until the bureaucracy of the system ties my hands into never completing my PhD and taking all this money I don't have. I consider it lucky I got the master's and ran.
Good point of this weekend: I worked 16 hours in a row, didn't have to sit in the rain, got to play on SG, got to knit, read a bunch of plays, got free food AND one of my bosses thought I was 19 (basically a rising junior) which I got a kick out of.
Bad point of the weekend: One person I've known for the past 3 years and who is graduating this weekend walked by my office and snarkily said "Oh how the mighty have fallen." I'm like WTF? Where have I fallen to? I mean, I'm basically sitting around getting paid with the keys to the entire campus and I'm somehow beneath you? This is a person I took in and let stay with me when no one else would, a person I bought furniture for because his own parents wouldn't do it - I'm not saying I regret doing anything for people when they have tough times, I was happy to do it - but seriously, people suck.
I think that it just bothers me that people think they can hurt me because they deny me things. Seriously, you can't hurt me, it's not that I don't care, because I would be lying if I said I didn't care what people think about me, I do. I just don't need your fucking permission okay? I'm going to get my PhD, I'm going to do the play the way I want to do it, I'm going to get out of this stupid town and get a good job one day. Don't think just because I am what you see that you see or know everything - douchebags.
I mean, I really feel discriminated against in school lately because the past two years have been personally hard on me: my mom got cancer, my sister got really sick, everyone but my dad lost their jobs, we lost a lot of money because of my mom's cancer treatments, I got into a terrible car crash... I mean, forgive me that I couldn't do things in the most perfect or timely manner for you. I don't have to go into my life story to do a good job now. I'm not going to genuflect all up and down main street begging forgiveness and for you to take me back into your group. Stop being all high and mighty and be understanding, and seriously if you don't want me to be in your group - I won't be. I'll start my own and do my own thing. Not that I think I'm awesome, but I seriously think you've lost a great asset if you lose my alliance. I value loyalty and if you're not there for me to understand why I'm not around when my life is crap - then I'll be compassionate when it happens to you, but I'm not going to go out of my way for you anymore.
I don't mean to be so much "My way or the highway" lately - I just don't feel no one else is going to give me a shot if I don't make my own opportunities.
What about you? Has anything like this happened to you? Stories please!
mattgarvin:
My phone broke and it will take longer than reading the unedited version of Steven Kings The Stand to get it fixed.