blogging in anger is never a good thing.
well....okay, it's cathartic and as an added bonus i had people vindicating my anger, which was nice. a lot of times i feel like i'm being too hard on the boyfriend when he does something to upset me. although i've tried to let go of old(ish) grudges, they still tend to pop up when he does something that , in effect, takes a sharp stick and pokes at them.
i also blogged before i really got a chance to talk to him. well...he talked, i mostly yelled.
anywho, i have come to the conclusion that i was overreacting. i've had a lot of stuff on my mind lately and i know that for the last couple days i've been looking for a reason to fight with someone.
in addition, i always get super emotional around the anniversary (hah...what a misleading word...) of my rape. and since this year is five years, which i associate with the statute of limitations (although i don't know anything about the legal process or statute restrictions of Ireland, where it happened), i'm feeling particularly upset. i think it's good though. when i think that there's nothing i could do anymore, even if i wanted to, i stop feeling guilty about not reporting it, not prosecuting him. i'm so ready to move past it. not to forget, of course, but at least to forgive myself, cause lord knows i've been blaming myself for at least a small portion of what happened.
but hey, my dear Amarena, my very oldest friend, if you still feel like breaking some kneecaps, i can give you the name and town of a man in Ireland who is severely in need of some severe pain. or i could sic Bad J on him.....but i doubt the bastard would come out alive after a run-in with that very angry sailor
and who says i can't be vindictive.....
well....okay, it's cathartic and as an added bonus i had people vindicating my anger, which was nice. a lot of times i feel like i'm being too hard on the boyfriend when he does something to upset me. although i've tried to let go of old(ish) grudges, they still tend to pop up when he does something that , in effect, takes a sharp stick and pokes at them.
i also blogged before i really got a chance to talk to him. well...he talked, i mostly yelled.
anywho, i have come to the conclusion that i was overreacting. i've had a lot of stuff on my mind lately and i know that for the last couple days i've been looking for a reason to fight with someone.
in addition, i always get super emotional around the anniversary (hah...what a misleading word...) of my rape. and since this year is five years, which i associate with the statute of limitations (although i don't know anything about the legal process or statute restrictions of Ireland, where it happened), i'm feeling particularly upset. i think it's good though. when i think that there's nothing i could do anymore, even if i wanted to, i stop feeling guilty about not reporting it, not prosecuting him. i'm so ready to move past it. not to forget, of course, but at least to forgive myself, cause lord knows i've been blaming myself for at least a small portion of what happened.
but hey, my dear Amarena, my very oldest friend, if you still feel like breaking some kneecaps, i can give you the name and town of a man in Ireland who is severely in need of some severe pain. or i could sic Bad J on him.....but i doubt the bastard would come out alive after a run-in with that very angry sailor
and who says i can't be vindictive.....
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And yes, ScumOfTheEarth McAsshole needs a beatdown. I call crowbar! What blunt object would you like to use? Classic baseball bat?
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