brin04

hey all, i hope things are good with everyone. i think my life has gone to shit. i hate complaning about my problems but it helps a little and at least on here i sometimes feel like someone cares. I went to hang out with my ex last night and thiggs were going good (we are trying to work things out and get backtogether), Then she and a friend wanted to go to this guys place and listen to some music and chill, where all 7 of us that were there couldnt go and i didnt want to hang out with her cusion and his friends cus all they do is try to convince me that she is no good for me and i need to find someone else to hook up with and get "lots of pussy" well whatever i dont want to do that i want a relatioinship with someone i love and i just dont want a hook up, ive waited this long my first time might as well at least be something specal now. anyway i got a little upset that she was busy the rest of teh weekend and wouldnt be able to hang out with me till tuesday so i was gonna head home. I pulled out and then she pulled up beside me in her car with all the gusy in it and she coudl see i was upset and her cusioin could too so they convinced me to follow to where they were going and in that 3 block trip somehow they got here pissed off to no end at me and themselves so she isnt talking to me and i dont even know the fuck why. i just hope this blows over i cant loose her out of my life even if all we end up being is friends. Its jsut so hard to keep feeling so strong bottled up inside me, i dont even know whats so special to me about this girl but i never want to leave her and jsut want to protect and take care of her all the time. well thanks for listening to my whining to anyone who reads this. i hope all is well with you.