brighteye

I wrote this for a baby
who has yet to be born
my brother's first child
I hope that womb's not too warm
cause it's cold out here
and it'll be quite a shock
to breathe this air
to discover loss
so I'd like to make some changes
before you arrive
so when your new eyes meet mine
they won't see no lies
just love.
just love.

Bright Eyes "No Lies, Just Love" what can I say that song gives me chills everytime I hear it

So New Years was a mixed bag. Pretty much got used for a ride to Charleston by this girl I have been kind of seeing. She apparently has just been using me as a way to fuck with her ex who she is obviously still caught up in. I met her at a meditation group that I go to so I thought, this is great, a spiritual person who has her shit together and her heart in the right place. I guess just because you are a seeker doesn't make you a saint. I am living proof of that. I am at a strange place in my life right now. My sprirtual compass has been on a spin over the past year. I have learned a lot. Most of all, I have learned I don't know shit. I have also learned all the pain, suffering, and worrying is false and temporary. Like my name. Like my face. I have learned that compassion, forgiveness and understanding are hard when it's not shown to you, but they are also our greatest gifts. I have learned that you can still have passion without the drama and carnage. I have seen again how drugs and alcohol ruin lives, yet I am drawn to those circles like a man huddling with friends on a winters night bracing from the cold with our bodies. I have learned that setting our intentions and the subsequent focus of energy really makes things happen. Good things. I am so grateful for all of the wonderful things in my life. When I truly open my eyes and shut down my ego, only then can I see all of the incredible blessings laid out in front of me like grapes on a vine.

I miss my friends so much, seeing them for New Years reminded me of that. Surround yourself with good people and lots of laughter and you fall in love with life all over again. Here's to wishing all of you the best in '05.
Some late nite drunken New Years Pics for you:

B Dub, Walsh, Silver, and me (with the exception of maybe me, some of the bestest guys you could ever meet in your whole damn life. And not a bald chin in the bunch lmao...)


Walsh either doing the P Diddy arm swing or starting a mosh pit on the dance floor, can't remember

Robbie's questionable personal hygiene habits.

Walsh as Nosferatu...kid is photogenic

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