So I bought my ex a teddy bear when we were together, one ofthose with the heart that says "shit bitch you is fine". I saw a pic of it in flux's photos. Until then I had forgotten I ever got it for him. I thought of it sitting in our old house, or thrown away, or whatever the hell ever became of it, and...
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I want to be sober again. I need a break, but I don't know how. I let it get out of control again.
I was a totally different person when I started this account. It's strange to look back at my blogs and remember the way I felt, the way I viewed certain aspects of my life, and the way I am now. I feel more content. I think I know myself a little better. My experiment in Virginia opened my eyes to things I would never have...
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This is not my problem. This is not MY problem. This is NOT my problem. Fuck it. Uncle.
I get so tired. I'm tired of pretending I'm not a female. I'm not like most, i don't freak for no reason or get pissed because you want to drink at noon on tues. I don't want to take you shopping with me or expect you to go to sleep at nine because I'm tired and I NEED you to fall asleep. I think that...
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If I was ever going to try to shoot a set, the scene outside right now would be perfect. In my hammock in my backyard with the rain pouring down. I so need to remember to have sex out there sometime. 
What do we do with missed opportunities? Is it fate that things don't work out or is it just the way life goes?
Even something simple. It's not life altering, or maybe it could have been? Either way I'll never know and I'm ok with that but there is a little, tiny mark on my heart to add to the rest.
Even something simple. It's not life altering, or maybe it could have been? Either way I'll never know and I'm ok with that but there is a little, tiny mark on my heart to add to the rest.
I'm returning this bleeding hearts club membership card cause I want no mutherfuckin part of it. 
Things I want to do when I move (clean slate)
1. Stop drinking!! Not because I need it but because it's shit and has no reason to be in my body. Health!!
2. Become vegan. I still eat cheese and even seafood so I'm not even really a veggie but I want to be one for health and moral reasons.
3. Stop being so fucking...
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1. Stop drinking!! Not because I need it but because it's shit and has no reason to be in my body. Health!!
2. Become vegan. I still eat cheese and even seafood so I'm not even really a veggie but I want to be one for health and moral reasons.
3. Stop being so fucking...
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