bria

sonofabitch emo Bran calm down!
Its amazing how much can change in the time that I think to write here. I've moved, met an amazing man that gets the quintessential ridiculousness that is me, and I'm bordering on happy. I'm stressed about finding a new job and terrified to put myself out there in the "real job" workforce but fuck it.
In retrospect I"m glad S was still in love with his ex, I wish he hadn't lied(hence the emo last post) but now that I know the truth I'm over it. I'm glad things turned out the way they did bc I finally grew up after him. I realized that the bad boy, the dangerous one, all that...is a lie. I thought that was the only thing that could turn me on...but ya know what's even sexier..being wanted. being myself with all my quirks..and knowing he loves that. Laughing...stupid txt msgs and listening to him talk about his kids. THAT is my new sexy. THAT is what makes me love being with him. Forget playing the game, trying to be cool and NOT have emotions. Being ME is what makes me feel awesome right now...and I hope it stays that way.