I get so tired. I'm tired of pretending I'm not a female. I'm not like most, i don't freak for no reason or get pissed because you want to drink at noon on tues. I don't want to take you shopping with me or expect you to go to sleep at nine because I'm tired and I NEED you to fall asleep. I think that I'm the kind of girl that many people would be proud to say is their significant other. I guess I just don't understand why the only one I want continues to push me away, only to beg me to "not give up on them". It sucks worse because I know they mean both things, the tenderness and the insensitivity, but being a woman it seems the tenderness lasts much longer in my mind. I just want the simplicity of a relationship. I don't think it has to be hard. I don't think it has to be this ridiculous hopeless romantic bullshit. I think it's friendship, combined with trust, a healthy dose of patience and humor. I laugh at the beer cans I find in random places in the house, why can't he do the same?
