brett_bretterson

Okay...so I'm back from my internet vacation.

You know, it's a funny thing. When you're by yourself and you have nothing but a million thoughts running through your head, and all of a sudden you see something insignificant, like a drop of dew falling from a leaf, and suddenly, your mind clears up, the thoughts stop running, and you think to yourself that everything is going to be okay. Such is what happend the other day, when I was mired in a depression. I stopped thinking clearly, I had become detached and seperated myself from my friends. I then started drinking my life away and I blacked out. Some other stuff happend and I found myself looking outside my bedroom window, thinking some pretty distructive thoughts when all of a sudden, I see a moth repeatedly flying into my window and crashing. For some reason, this kind of just snaps my mind back into place (and mind you, I'm still piss drunk at this time) and I start thinking rationally again. I came to the conclusion that I was the one that actually brought everything onto myself and that it wasn't too late to change the situation. So now here I am, in a positive mood for the first time in a long time, and I can say that although I would have rather not have gone through this, I'm kind of glad that I have because I walked away from this a better person. You know what the say right? Everything happens for a reason. Now if I can only aviod the same pitfalls again....