Argh,
I cant sleep for shit lately. And then I worry about how im NOT sleeping. Im such a pessimist lately, I swear. Not just about sleeping but everything....Why?? Bla bla bla the weather in nyc sucks bla my feet are too big ra ra ra. I am being hard on the way I look lately too. Why? Im not fishing for compliments, I just seriously feel bad about myself lately and I dont know why or how to fix it. I need to stay busier....I always say Im so busy, but its because I procrastinate and leave things to the last minute. I ment to work out everyday of Thx Giving break. I havent worked out ONCE. Thats really sad. I honestly sat on the computer and ate McDonalds my whole break. Thats really sad. I was supposed to buy color film and shoot over break too and I havent. I cant buy it 2morrow because the proffesional film stores here are closed on weekends because they are owned by Jewish people. I sit on my ass and then complain when things dont go my way. I feel kind of depressed lately. Im GLAD im oging to school and trying to ''do something with my life'', but Im still sad. Am I always going to be unsatisfied?? Ive dreamed of living in NYC since I was little and here I am. I NEVER thought Id be in COLLEGE. Here I am. AND IM SLACKING RAAAA!! At first I was trying really hard, but lately Ive just been such a poo about everything. *Sigh* Thank you for letting me vent on here about nothingness.....Ha I even feel bad about feeling bad about such petty things :\. Im tired of complaining.
Life is what I make it and im too lazy to make anything lately.
I cant sleep for shit lately. And then I worry about how im NOT sleeping. Im such a pessimist lately, I swear. Not just about sleeping but everything....Why?? Bla bla bla the weather in nyc sucks bla my feet are too big ra ra ra. I am being hard on the way I look lately too. Why? Im not fishing for compliments, I just seriously feel bad about myself lately and I dont know why or how to fix it. I need to stay busier....I always say Im so busy, but its because I procrastinate and leave things to the last minute. I ment to work out everyday of Thx Giving break. I havent worked out ONCE. Thats really sad. I honestly sat on the computer and ate McDonalds my whole break. Thats really sad. I was supposed to buy color film and shoot over break too and I havent. I cant buy it 2morrow because the proffesional film stores here are closed on weekends because they are owned by Jewish people. I sit on my ass and then complain when things dont go my way. I feel kind of depressed lately. Im GLAD im oging to school and trying to ''do something with my life'', but Im still sad. Am I always going to be unsatisfied?? Ive dreamed of living in NYC since I was little and here I am. I NEVER thought Id be in COLLEGE. Here I am. AND IM SLACKING RAAAA!! At first I was trying really hard, but lately Ive just been such a poo about everything. *Sigh* Thank you for letting me vent on here about nothingness.....Ha I even feel bad about feeling bad about such petty things :\. Im tired of complaining.
Life is what I make it and im too lazy to make anything lately. VIEW 25 of 42 COMMENTS
College life has its ups and downs but just think of the result at the end of it.