I know I havent been on for almost a whole month (in 8 more days) But I have just been super busy with the thoughts running through my own brain.
I never realized how much of a demon secrets and holding stuff in could be and im so passive that I let maybe waaaay to much go but im so tired of sitting back and just letting my heart get broken. I got broken up with wendnesday and I never understood what i had done wrong I over analyzed everything and decided that I wouldnt make those mistakes again. I just found out that this whole time my ex gf was also datin another girl :/ I usually let most things slide but cheating isnt cool and neither is lying especially when ive done nothing but give my all. I guess my feelings are just hurt because I never even had a chance and i feel so gross and stupid because I never saw it I never even thought I had competion. It just sucks I guess...
So yea that was my rant and im over it I swear. i had a set my first one ever thatll eventually be up but heres a pic to get an idea of how COOL it was lol
and ummmm I made a video that once i put together right I will also post cant wait im so ready to move forward and make better choices that are for me!
I am not anyones plaything!!
I never realized how much of a demon secrets and holding stuff in could be and im so passive that I let maybe waaaay to much go but im so tired of sitting back and just letting my heart get broken. I got broken up with wendnesday and I never understood what i had done wrong I over analyzed everything and decided that I wouldnt make those mistakes again. I just found out that this whole time my ex gf was also datin another girl :/ I usually let most things slide but cheating isnt cool and neither is lying especially when ive done nothing but give my all. I guess my feelings are just hurt because I never even had a chance and i feel so gross and stupid because I never saw it I never even thought I had competion. It just sucks I guess...
So yea that was my rant and im over it I swear. i had a set my first one ever thatll eventually be up but heres a pic to get an idea of how COOL it was lol
and ummmm I made a video that once i put together right I will also post cant wait im so ready to move forward and make better choices that are for me!
I am not anyones plaything!!
By the way, when you need to get naked in the cold a good idea is to first put oil on your skin - keeps you warm without clothes
Sorry, to hear about the cheating but better a bad end than bad without ending.
Tried to translate a German proverb: Besser ein Ende mit Schrecken als Schrecken ohne Ende. Could also be translated into better an end with horror than horror without end.
I found that one sign for cheating is jealousy...
I should've known she was always mad when i talked to anyone but her and I always just thought it was because i was so special but i guess it was her own guilt acting
thank you I never thought of either things that way im so quick to blame myself i never actually analyze the signs...