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So blah blah blah..

The counselor says I have no boundries, and that's why I act the way I do..and I say yes I do have boundries, otherwise I wouldn't be able to do what I do for a living..and do it as well as I do..or, maybe it's because I'm always onthe fence, that makes me good at what I do..I dunno..either way.I'm good at it.. So where is all my distress coming from? My relationships..I suck at them..I know..I'm self centered, too easily swayed and always have my eye on something else...but is that all my fault? Do I have no boundries in this relationship because I'm unhappy? Or do I really just HAVE NO BOUNDRIES..strange thing..being me..

But enough of that..honestly..I'm tired of talking about it!! Tired of thinking about it..and just want to get back to living life!! Fuck!!

So we had training yesterday and it was awesome..tromping through the woods looking for shitheads.it was great..I love, LOVE my job..and I just got made a trainer..this place will never be the same.. I now have personal input on our new guys future careers in law enforcement..it's gonna be great..those poor kids.this poor department..lol..just kidding..they are gonna be the best cops this fucking place has ever seen!! Cuz I got my shit together!!!

On another note, a buddy of mine asked me to go to the fuel concert on SAturday...BUT!! the UFC is this Saturday.what to do..what to do.so many choices!! SO little time..Fuck it...I'll figure it out..

I love you all!! THis world rocks..and I"ll see you all soon..hopefully!!