Just back from family visit. Still feel raw. Have to hide almost EVERYTHING - my orientation, my lifestyle, my tattoo, even took out my eyebrow piercing.
So, should be so relieved to be home where i can be myself in front of my roommates. But today when it was so damn hot and sticky, our mutual grouchiness turned to sharp words and tears and we all went to our respective corners to sulk and obsess over how misunderstood we are and how unreasonable the others are. And now it's night, and we've eaten, and it's cooler, and everybody's relaxed, and the "fight" seems distant and stupid and petty and even slightly amusing.
Which it was. But gods i wish i had perspective DURING and not just after.
So, should be so relieved to be home where i can be myself in front of my roommates. But today when it was so damn hot and sticky, our mutual grouchiness turned to sharp words and tears and we all went to our respective corners to sulk and obsess over how misunderstood we are and how unreasonable the others are. And now it's night, and we've eaten, and it's cooler, and everybody's relaxed, and the "fight" seems distant and stupid and petty and even slightly amusing.
Which it was. But gods i wish i had perspective DURING and not just after.
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maxk:
You never came out to your family?
syrrys:
heh but wishing for hind sight ahead of time is a universal human conditionisn't it?