out of the night that covers me
black as the pit from pole to pole
i thank whatever gods may be
for my unconquerable soul
in the fell clutch of circumstance
i have not winced nor cried aloud
under the bludgeonings of chance
my head is bloodied but unbowed
beyond this place of wrath and tears
lies but the horror of the shade
and yet the menace of the years
finds and shall find me unafraid
it matters not how strait the gate
how charged with punishment the scroll
i am the master of my fate
i am the captain of my soul
- william ernest henley
right now, i am all about ownership. like langston hughes, life for me ain't been no crystal stair. i have had my share of drama, trouble and bullshit. and i have been through things that would make many people just want to give up. but i am not many people and, as someone dear to me pointed out to me yesterday, most people are not like me.
that is not to say that i feel better than anyone. clearly not. but i am wired differently. i have felt it all my life. and now, for me to succeed and advance in this next phase of life, i must know it and OWN it.
things happen for a reason. for a moment yesterday, when meeting with my lawyer and signing the retainer (and forking over the cash), i started to wonder if i was doing the right thing. was i being responsible taking on yet another expense for some crazy scheme that might not work? maybe i should wait a while. rethink things.
i started a music production company while an undergrad in college. i had big dreams. i didnt get where i wanted but i learned a lot. i started a graphic design business 7 years ago. i had big dreams. i didnt get where i wanted. but i learned a lot more. some people would say to quit while i was ahead. those people dont know me very well.
you arent going to hit a home run every time you step to the plate. just look at leonardo da vinci and thomas edison among others. some of history's greatest thinkers, inventors and entrepreneurs fell flat on their ass many times before rising to prominence. i believe that by applying what i have learned from the past with my desire for what i want in the future while working hard in the present, i will acheive my aims.
see, i am the person that does what most people sit around and wish they could. there is something about my spirit and creative energy that motivates people and infuses them with passion. its infectious. its inspiring. and for that, i am grateful. if i wasnt supposed to be doing what i am doing, i wouldnt be getting the kind of support that i am getting. every time i have taken a chance and followed my heart, i have had no shortage of people willing to make the journey with me. and for that, i am grateful.
sure, its no walk in the park. and im not ready to retire to an island in the pacific just yet. but i am ready to stop doubting and start believing. a wise jedi master once said, "do or do not. there is no try". i cannot and most importantly WILL not allow myself to worry any longer. i have faith in myself. faith in my ability. faith in my decisions.
i believe that what i want to happen will happen. it will happen because i am willing to work harder than anyone else. it will happen because i am smart and talented enough to make it happen. but mostly it will happen because i WANT it to work. i refuse to see any other option.
it matters not how strait the gate,
how charged with punishment the scroll
i am the master of my fate
i am the captain of my soul
black as the pit from pole to pole
i thank whatever gods may be
for my unconquerable soul
in the fell clutch of circumstance
i have not winced nor cried aloud
under the bludgeonings of chance
my head is bloodied but unbowed
beyond this place of wrath and tears
lies but the horror of the shade
and yet the menace of the years
finds and shall find me unafraid
it matters not how strait the gate
how charged with punishment the scroll
i am the master of my fate
i am the captain of my soul
- william ernest henley
right now, i am all about ownership. like langston hughes, life for me ain't been no crystal stair. i have had my share of drama, trouble and bullshit. and i have been through things that would make many people just want to give up. but i am not many people and, as someone dear to me pointed out to me yesterday, most people are not like me.
that is not to say that i feel better than anyone. clearly not. but i am wired differently. i have felt it all my life. and now, for me to succeed and advance in this next phase of life, i must know it and OWN it.
things happen for a reason. for a moment yesterday, when meeting with my lawyer and signing the retainer (and forking over the cash), i started to wonder if i was doing the right thing. was i being responsible taking on yet another expense for some crazy scheme that might not work? maybe i should wait a while. rethink things.
i started a music production company while an undergrad in college. i had big dreams. i didnt get where i wanted but i learned a lot. i started a graphic design business 7 years ago. i had big dreams. i didnt get where i wanted. but i learned a lot more. some people would say to quit while i was ahead. those people dont know me very well.
you arent going to hit a home run every time you step to the plate. just look at leonardo da vinci and thomas edison among others. some of history's greatest thinkers, inventors and entrepreneurs fell flat on their ass many times before rising to prominence. i believe that by applying what i have learned from the past with my desire for what i want in the future while working hard in the present, i will acheive my aims.
see, i am the person that does what most people sit around and wish they could. there is something about my spirit and creative energy that motivates people and infuses them with passion. its infectious. its inspiring. and for that, i am grateful. if i wasnt supposed to be doing what i am doing, i wouldnt be getting the kind of support that i am getting. every time i have taken a chance and followed my heart, i have had no shortage of people willing to make the journey with me. and for that, i am grateful.
sure, its no walk in the park. and im not ready to retire to an island in the pacific just yet. but i am ready to stop doubting and start believing. a wise jedi master once said, "do or do not. there is no try". i cannot and most importantly WILL not allow myself to worry any longer. i have faith in myself. faith in my ability. faith in my decisions.
i believe that what i want to happen will happen. it will happen because i am willing to work harder than anyone else. it will happen because i am smart and talented enough to make it happen. but mostly it will happen because i WANT it to work. i refuse to see any other option.
it matters not how strait the gate,
how charged with punishment the scroll
i am the master of my fate
i am the captain of my soul
Life is all about taking risks for what you want. If one isn't willing to take the risk, then why bother living? It's not even 'living' then, it's 'existing'.
I admire your spirit and energy.