Mood: Adagios of Barber, Elgar, Mahler, Bruckner, et. al.

At Sea

So much is confusing these days. So much support for an Administration that is worse than the previous one just one of many confusions. There are those who declare there is a war against women, yet cannot define what a woman is, and yet by including those who ‘feel’ they are, are diminishing what a woman is, or so it seems. You see: confusing.

Hence, being ‘at sea’.

Yet, for me, personally, I look at ways to change things or thoughts or views in this way: What would it take to change my own mind, especially in as much to change my Party. It at least seems to me that there might be less emotional impetus to kill one another is we were to look at things in such a light. It is, therefore, doomed to fail, and that is sad. Look at how violence has been on the increase. The reasons for it matter not in the context that we humans have millennia of proof that we are a violent race.

Yet, I go off on a tangent. I try to calm myself with the mental exercise of what it would take to change my mind and allow myself to accept that there might be no way, or to implement what I think could work, understanding that I need to let it go if it fails. If it’s important to me enough to try and I’ve done my best only to fail, then I must be content that I tried.

The only other thing I look to is Nature.

A Sea of Stars. And Storms🤷♂️

The last few weeks we have had some good thunderstorms in NC. I am fortunate enough to live just west enough to miss the serious storms that a hurricane may bring (for the most part) and just east enough to mis the regularity of tornados. But, boy, do we get some doozy deluges right along with the requisite lightning and thunder. The weekend of the 8th of this month, I was treated to two wonderful such storms. Friday night, in my front room, at about 10pm was the first one, and I turned out all the lights, turned my recliner towards to window and just sat and watched and listened. It was both fascinating and calming. nature is both amazing and cruel, and when it is less cruel it calms me. When living in Alaska, I would sit and watch snowfall for perhaps too much time, as it happened a lot, (no, not in Summer! 😁), but it was calming nonetheless.

Then that Sunday, there was another. I had finally put my writing desk together in my bedroom and happened to be writing at the time, so once again I turned off the lights, opened the blinds and one of the windows and turned my chair towards them. I took some video, but as I haven’t been doing this actual blogging thing (though I suppose that would move it into the ‘vlog’ area) I do not seem to be able to share it here. Suffice it to be said that it was a damn deluge! To give a slight idea, we have some landscaping along the walkway down to my living area with bushes and wood hip filler to make it all look nice. Up until this deluge from the Heavens none of it washed down to away….

Yep, a deluge.

Still and all, at the time (and you could hear the actual deluge in the video, along with seeing the continual lighting up of the sky and hearing the thunder) it was, once again, calming.

Then, last Monday came the first images released from the Webb Space Telescope….

There are so many more stunning and amazing images to choose from, but that final one especially with the galaxies; one description was that if you put a grain of sand on your fingertip and extended your arm out in front of you, that tiny grain of sand encompasses that amount of sky in that image AND the light from those galaxies took over 4 billion years to travel to us. In other words, the Earth did not even exist when those galaxies were there….🤯

What’s Been Going On?

In other news, Friday after getting our provisioning done for the week, I was finishing my lunch and simply stood up to put my dishes away and my mf-ing goddamned knee popped with a slight grind of bone-on-bone action and….well, to put it mildly, it hurt. Been more or less off it as much as can be possible since.

But…

Well, that allowed me to get more writing done!

I am close to finishing this achievement, but it is ‘funny’ to me; as much as. Want to get it done, I find myself slowing a bit, almost hesitant to get done with what has been an almost-decade path. Understandable, I suppose, but still somehow odd. Dunno.

But it will get done; I have an epic story already in mind to move onto next, mentioned elsewhere, that research has begun for….

I hope all is well with those who make it this far, and even for those who didn’t!