bradleyoliver

i broke down today.....somebody was fucking with my parts, somebody and my fear for a loved ones safety......and im a fragile machine.........i cant really talk about what is going on, but crying and numbness helpped out a lot.....i was sitting on my bathroom floor in my boxers staring at my self through this fish eye mirror thats is about 3 feet in diameter.....i was sitting indian style....letting my legs fall asleep and then waiting for the feel of blood trickling down my veins back into my feet........it kept me leveled........that and i starting writing all over the edge of the mirror......

i think it is really important for people to not think too much, dont dwell..........or maybe you should think a shit load(like you probably already do) and then break down and fuck up, and then learn from your mistake(which you probably do as well).......

keep a level of being on top of things...but NEVER show it.....thats weak......that shows your scared and you want others to know youre not.......

i dont know how many times ive told this to myself or others, or how cliche it is but ....just let things be
jonny lennon knew what he was fuckn talking about....or aboot for me canadian friends...

im waiting for my other pair of white pants to dry.....i got big red on them.....

i did a lot of recording today before i got the news of....what made me horribly sad........it was comforting...i recorded out side and you can hear the birds chirpping and the train howling in the background.....it was pretty........of course i can say my playing is that pretty, but it makes me feel good...

q and not u was great last night, we got them to come back for 2 encores....rad..........i was a lil drunk though....screaming at harris, telling him he was beautiful(again) ha.........it was fun, and they had this dance band that was fuckin fun too........i saw a lot of people from the valley and san marcos...........ann and monik were there, and i was going back and forth to talking to them...and everything was fine......until......i told ann i would hang out with her after the show, but then i decided to go to my friend jorges to smoke...with monik.....booboo..... she was pissed because she was already at my house waiting......i feel like shit...but i was drunk as shit....me and women drunk....are always messes.......im chopping it off........and mounting it ha

well be good, and i love