I remember joining this site in 2005 and thinking wow, I am really awkwardly social with women, and bewildered with all these beautiful suicidegirls on here that liked the same things I like. At that time I had just moved from my small town of McAllen, Texas to Austin, Texas to go to school. I also remember making a lot of cool friend on this site, even though I was off and on it regularly throughout the years.
There was this one beautiful person on here who I went on a couple of dates with. She was a suicidegirl name @Evangeline, but she went by Ari in person. She wanted to become a comedian and was very passionate about here jewish/Lebanese heritage. I remember the first thing that caught my eye was a Nabu tattoo from the Mighty Boosh. I was like, this chick likes the Mighty Boosh? She's on point. We had some passionate nights together, lots of drinking and laughing.
I found out a couple years ago, after I had moved to Seattle that she had passed away.
I didn't know, because I had been going through my own morning of my little brothers death around the time she died. I wasn't even able to connect with anybody for at least a year after that. I felt dead after I lost him. Apparently, she died the same year in 2011. I first off wanna say, that I love and miss my brother everyday and I would like to tell you how beautiful of a dude he was.
I can go on and write another blog about him later, when I am strong enough. He is hard for me to talk about.
here are some pics of us at my friend Alison's house:
(he is the one in the heart eye patch)
Not a day goes by where I don't think about him.
Back to Ari though....
I just couldn't believe she had passed on too, leaving a beautiful young girl who apparently turned 9 recently.
Life is tragic, and I just wanted to dedicate this post to my brother and Ari.
Are there memorial pages for suicidegirls who have gone on?
Here is to you @evangeline!
Sorry I didn't get a chance to say goodbye, you are released from all pain and suffering.
xoxo <3
