what the fuk is wrong with me...
so I am in a perpetual identity crisis or maybe I am just completely nuts. I want so many things that are pretty much mutually exclusive. I guess everyone wants to eat their cake and have it too, but I really want to eat my cake and eat some pie and I hate sweets!
I grew up basically homeless, then went to college, cleaned up and got some corporate jobs made lots of money and really hated it. I tossed it all away to chase a dream... but now I feel like I've seen so many different ways of life, I miss parts of each, I hate parts of each and I want to change parts of each. The problem is that I am not all three... I am none of the above. I alienate materialistic people I overwhelm stoics and I start to wonder if everyone thinks I'm crazy
I know in the long run it's all going to work out awesomely, I've planned out the whole thing to make it work awesomely, but it's such a long plan and I am so restless. I do things I KNOW ARE WRONG almost everyday/ I put of things I KNOW I SHOULD do almost every day. I feel like I am not meant for this planet, but I'm here, so I guess this planet just isn't ready for me, well I guess it is, that's exactly why they wrote all these rules and hiired all these cops to to enforce them... I just hate keeping quiet about stuff I know is wrong and I hate doing shit I don't think is good for all.
what the fuk am I even typing here, fuk I hope nobody reads this!
so I am in a perpetual identity crisis or maybe I am just completely nuts. I want so many things that are pretty much mutually exclusive. I guess everyone wants to eat their cake and have it too, but I really want to eat my cake and eat some pie and I hate sweets!
I grew up basically homeless, then went to college, cleaned up and got some corporate jobs made lots of money and really hated it. I tossed it all away to chase a dream... but now I feel like I've seen so many different ways of life, I miss parts of each, I hate parts of each and I want to change parts of each. The problem is that I am not all three... I am none of the above. I alienate materialistic people I overwhelm stoics and I start to wonder if everyone thinks I'm crazy
I know in the long run it's all going to work out awesomely, I've planned out the whole thing to make it work awesomely, but it's such a long plan and I am so restless. I do things I KNOW ARE WRONG almost everyday/ I put of things I KNOW I SHOULD do almost every day. I feel like I am not meant for this planet, but I'm here, so I guess this planet just isn't ready for me, well I guess it is, that's exactly why they wrote all these rules and hiired all these cops to to enforce them... I just hate keeping quiet about stuff I know is wrong and I hate doing shit I don't think is good for all.
what the fuk am I even typing here, fuk I hope nobody reads this!