bozeman666

So, I'm just not into X-mas this year. I'm doing it with a smile for the kiddo, but, It's just kinda depressing being alone for it all. All in all, I'm doing alot better than I was just two months ago. I hear that my ex has gone through four jobs in a month, she has no home, just kinda roaming around. I haven't seen any money from her in over 4 months now. But on the rare occasion that she calls she talks about how shes getting ready to send money. I guess it's just kinda sad, I feel like I'm finally starting to get my life together, and I get to watch hers fall apart. My daughter clings to any girl she sees because she wants a female in her life. I can't blame her, I'm not the most girlie person you could find. We have a lot of fun together, but when it comes to the girlie stuff, I try but I'm no good at it and she notices the difference. I don't think my little one is unhappy, but she definatly knows something is wrong. I just wish I could meet someone and be able to go slow enough to know they're the right one. I've met one girl and I didn't like it when we hung out because Kya just forgot about me, I guess it's just an uncomfortable feeling. I've come to rely on her almost as much as she does on me. She is my pillar of strength, and when nothing could possibly make me smile, somehow she finds a way. Maybe I'm just better off single.