so he is the weirdest boy ever. he's unbelievable. i like him. i like fooling around with him. i like looking at him. he's big and strong and ridiculously sexy. but for some reason i can't get attached. it's like... out of sight out of mind. but when i am with him i fall all over myself. he makes me swoon... but i have a mental block, i just can't make myself care. i am interested. i am. i just... don't feel right about wanting to see him. maybe it's the ex... maybe it's the circumstance... maybe i am an ice queen who can never love anyone as much as she loves herself. hahahahaha. 