boyinescalator

ahh thanksgiving... i spent the evening over at my sister's husband's family's house. i had met most of the people before, but didn't really know anyone. it wasn't too bad though. going back to wednesday though, i gave my ex a call, oh course she didn't pick up. i left her a message saying there were things that we needed to talk about and i was hoping that we could be as mature about this as possible. she called me back on thursday at around 11. i didn't pick up. i didn't expect her to ever call back. i just got that sinking feeling in my stomach and my vision got all blurry around the edges. i got up the courage to call her back like an hour later. she was already asleep, but she picked up. we talked for a little while, but never got around to the reason why i had wanted to talk to her to begin with, we decided it was best we saved that. she said she'd call me back when she had time, but it probably wouldn't be for quite a while. whatever. i still love her and i've come to terms with that. i think that eventually she will realize that she loves me as well, and i'm hoping that what i have to say to her will have some impact on her thoughts. shit. leaving soon to go to the thunderbirds are now! cd release show at the magic stick. the magic stick is one of my favorite places on the planet, so it should be good.