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IM defintley not thinking about cheating..I have only cheated on one girlfriend ever.. that was about 12 years ago right after my brother died.. i was a wreck and was very irresponsible during my time of grief, alot of drinking,drugs. not wanting to be alive so i didnt care who i hurt..I bring up the question because i was curious on how others feel towards it .. I know alot of people believe almost sacrilious while others dont care..I wouldnt risk losing my daughter over a physical act .. But i know if i started feeling real emotions toward someone else i would seperate from her..I just may need some time alone..I have realized that my life wont be over if this marriage ends it just will be difficult for a short while..I know i have intimacy issues because im afraid of being hurt .. I think it comes from the death of my brother
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LOL...um...yeah...Vandilous is married. They're seperated, but still techinically married. Vanny and I have been together 3.5 years now and live together though, so it's probably not quite the same. God I wish they would get this stupid divorce over with though..they get the papers all worked up and then something happens and it all goes to hell and they have to start all over...I'm about ready to just shoot the bitch and save ourselves all the hassle.