a day or two ago aoife wrote a great entry about kisses and kissing and such and ended with the question:
What's your most memorable kiss?
so, i'm gonna do like a top five memorable kisses or something like that (we'll see how many i come up with)...
number 1 // leah the heartbreaker : last kiss
it was the beginning of march in 2004. i had just met with my two prospective roommates for the house i would eventually move into (the one i live in now) and was walking fifteen minutes up the street to boston university to see my girlfriend, leah, the heartbreaker in her dorm room. one week previous, she told me we were over and that she needed time to herself, etc. i couldn't deal with it. i was going to make a final, last ditch plea to get her back.
it didn't work.
i asked her how she could say the things she said and still want to walk away from it. she had no answers. after an hour of worthless talking, i just asked very simply: can i kiss you? and she put down the piece of chicken she was eating (wtf?) wiped her mouth and crawled across the bed. i leaned forward, she leaned forward and, tentatively, we kissed...
it started slow: awkward and casual all at once. it grew in intensity, she fell into me and i pulled her in, she grabbed the back of my head, wrapped her fingers in my hair and would not let go. our bodies were stretched tight and lined up directly with one another, each pushing rhythmically with the kiss.
after about two minutes, it ended.
i was breathless. literally, i was gasping for air.
she had a dazed look in her eyes.
and i said "how can you possibly walk away from a kiss like that?"
and she made a stuttering sound, and eventually said "i can't be expected to put syllables together after a kiss like that."
fifteen minutes later she told me it was over for good.
i was never able to understand it.
a kiss like that makes it hard to forget and move on.
best kiss i've ever had, but the hardest one i have to remember.
number 2 // charlotte : jail bait
she was fifteen i was twenty-one. we met in a circle pit, skanking at a ROYAL NOISE BRIGADE show. she had her head shaved. through a series of coincidences, we ended up hanging out. she wanted to have sex with me and i said no. one night we were at my apartment, laying down together and watching THE LOST BOYS, it was comfortable and cozy and nice. i had to drive her home after the movie. we were heading towards the door and we both sorta stopped in the kitchen. in the darkness, by the moonlight through the curtain-less window, i leaned down and she looked up, and i kissed her, softly and gently on the lips. it was just a couple of seconds. but it made my whole body flutter for the rest of the night.
a couple of weeks later i moved back to massachusetts to get away from a hometown that fucked me up so bad that i ended up kissing a fifteen year old. (for the record, at that time, i may have been the only boy my age that she ever met who DIDN'T try to fuck her -- that girl did some living).
number 3 // lisa franklin : art school girl
there was no specific kiss with lisa. for about six weeks, from the time we met, all we did was kiss, caress and hold each other in magnificent ways until we fell asleep each night. i can't recall any one incident, but there was just a general, all-consuming wondefulness to our every moment spent in the dark. no matter how fucked-up or stressed-out i felt, it all dropped out of me the minute i felt her fingertips on my skin. lisa was the most sensous person that i had ever met. i could've touched her body for days at a time. her touch was so precise, that she could run her fingertips up and down my ribs (the second most ticklish part of my body -- and i am MAD ticklish yo) and send me into these crazy bouts of ecstasy...
but, alas, she was a hippy and i was a punk. when we stopped kissing, nothing worked-out between us.
after about two months, we had sex once. it ruined everything.
number 4 // leah the heartbreaker : first kiss
we had been dating for three weeks. she opted to sleep at my house the night we watched DAUGHTERS OF DARKNESS (too late to take the train home, etc). we slept in a pile of blankets on a tile floor (i had no bed at the time). we layed in the dark for about an hour, talking to and caressing one another (it had taken me this long, just to feel comfortable putting my hands on her, having physical contact with her). she asked if she could kiss me (i was too nervous to make any move whatsoever). i said yes.
it was as if her lips sent sparks of electricty through my body. my chest felt hollowed out. my fingertips trembled. my whole body was alive.
we kissed for hours.
it was glorious.
number five // janet : bold, brash and sexy
right after the leah break-up (right about the time i joined this site, in fact, you can read an entry about this kiss if you go to like my third entry) i started having more fun with my life, losing inhibitions and doing whatever the fuck i wanted to to have fun. i went to see THE KINGS OF NUTHIN' the very first night i bought my tight-ass rocker jeans and striped muscle-tee. two hours after being in the club i met janet and her friends.
she was my type. damn was she my type. pale skin. short dark hair. slightly androgynous. tight black t-shirt. tight black pants.
we danced on and off all night. at some point, i lost her and some DISGUSTING foul creature tried to do the "hump-my-leg" dance on me; i ran away and found janet again and asked her to fake being my girlfriend so the gross creature would take the hint.
after the show, we said our goodbyes, she was from maine and leaving town immediately, no chance for anything but a night of dancing together; a night of constantly finding our eyes on each other. i said:
"thanks for pretending to like me so that girl would go away."
she said:
"i wasn't pretending. when you asked me to do that, i just wanted to pull you in to me and kiss you."
i said:
"you should've"
then, she grabbed me by the belt and pulled my hips into hers and leaned into me with such class, elegance and style as she put her lips on mine, to slide her tongue between my lips...
and i was so blown away that i just froze mid-kiss.
that was one of the single sexiest things that any girl has ever done to me.
***
2004 was a bad year for relationships for me. most of it was spent trying to survive leah; the rest of it was just spent. i didn't fall in love every ten minutes but i didn't find anything that would last either. 2005 will be a year for kissing.
i want a kiss that blows away that list. i want to kiss a sensous girl with class and style who fits right in my arms and smells like sunshine. i want something i could trust. i'm all second-guesses and false-hopes recently. i lay myself on the line; i have no time for any games that anyone wants to play.
i have a few resolutions this year.
and they will come true.
resolve is one of my favorite words, it means: "the trait of being resolute; firmness of purpose."
what it really means to show resolve is to make a conscious decision and see it through to the end.
so, this year,
i will kiss a few beautiful girls and try to find one worth having a serious and meaningful relationship with. i will not sleep with whoever comes along just for the fuck of it; but i will pursue any girl who gives me that hollowed out and trembly feeling...
i will concentrate as hard on improving my aesthetic skills (drawing, color theory and typography) as i did on improving my business and marketing skills in the last two years.
i will tell stories with words and pictures: i will write and draw my own comics.
i will study muay thai and make my body and spirit harder and more fierce. i will push myself to the limit and force myself to accept greater levels of pain and exhaustion.
that is all.
tonights party was nice. thanks so much to blondie and strio for being such great hosts. too bad if you missed it
, i had a good time ringing in the new year amongst friends...
***
i saw THE LIFE AQUATIC with STEVE ZISSOU today. i was dissapointed. i will give you my official six-word review:
a meandering facade of lifeless characters
hopefully he will learn whatever it is that he wanted to learn from this film and his next one will be an improvement and not a step back from his previous work.
***
oh and lastly a major thanks to mydogfarted and crazyanimallady who hosted myself and The Pants at their home wednesday night and took us out dancing and fed us pizza and were a total great time to hang out with. it was extra fun because i am slightly allergic to cats and they have TEN FUCKING CATS in their house. how crazy is that? you can't even IMAGINE how many cats ten equals when they are running around a house! and strangest of all, their house doesn't smell like cat!
they were so cool that they actually de-cat-ified the guest room for me...
seriously they are so great. we went out to a sketchy club in passaic, new jersey where we met up with derceto (who was wearing an awesome misfits t-shirt -- the one i hacked apart and stitched to the back of my vest) for some dancing. crazyanimallady and i got to dance to "rio" by DURAN DURAN and few other select favorites. she was fun and as for mydogfarted, you've got to love a guy who not only doesn't get stupid-jealous, but INSISTS that you dance with his wife! except for the smokiness of the club, it was a great night, The Pants and i danced ourselves into exhaustion... but not so much so that we couldn't magically spring back to life and literally JUMP onto the dance floor when Polly Styrene's voice shouted out of the speakers "OH BONDAGE, UP YOURS! 1! 2! 3! 4!"
seriously, the fact that they have been married for eight years, to me, is totally fucking cool. they are a rad couple. gives me hope for the future...
(on behalf of The Pants) thanks again guys!
***
and finally, i spent my holiday money that my mom insisted not go to bills on the following:
DVD's:
1. MAN ON FIRE
2. ALIENS
3. LAKE PLACID (yeah, what of it?!)
4. NIGHTBREED
CD's:
1. The Adicts : Collection (2 - discs)
2. Joy Division : Substance
3. Old Mans Child : The Pagan Prosperity (black metal!!!)
COMICS:
1. The Complete Sequential by Paul Hornschemeier (holy crap batman! my favorite indie series collected in one gorgeous hardcover? the best part is that i didn't even know it was out! or that it was being made!).
2. the three issues of the mini-comic TAKE-OUT by Raina Telgemeier that i did not have (including the very first issue
).
***
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2005
(fuck 2004)
with love,
your pal,
jordan // BuckyKatt666
What's your most memorable kiss?
so, i'm gonna do like a top five memorable kisses or something like that (we'll see how many i come up with)...
number 1 // leah the heartbreaker : last kiss
it was the beginning of march in 2004. i had just met with my two prospective roommates for the house i would eventually move into (the one i live in now) and was walking fifteen minutes up the street to boston university to see my girlfriend, leah, the heartbreaker in her dorm room. one week previous, she told me we were over and that she needed time to herself, etc. i couldn't deal with it. i was going to make a final, last ditch plea to get her back.
it didn't work.
i asked her how she could say the things she said and still want to walk away from it. she had no answers. after an hour of worthless talking, i just asked very simply: can i kiss you? and she put down the piece of chicken she was eating (wtf?) wiped her mouth and crawled across the bed. i leaned forward, she leaned forward and, tentatively, we kissed...
it started slow: awkward and casual all at once. it grew in intensity, she fell into me and i pulled her in, she grabbed the back of my head, wrapped her fingers in my hair and would not let go. our bodies were stretched tight and lined up directly with one another, each pushing rhythmically with the kiss.
after about two minutes, it ended.
i was breathless. literally, i was gasping for air.
she had a dazed look in her eyes.
and i said "how can you possibly walk away from a kiss like that?"
and she made a stuttering sound, and eventually said "i can't be expected to put syllables together after a kiss like that."
fifteen minutes later she told me it was over for good.
i was never able to understand it.
a kiss like that makes it hard to forget and move on.
best kiss i've ever had, but the hardest one i have to remember.
number 2 // charlotte : jail bait
she was fifteen i was twenty-one. we met in a circle pit, skanking at a ROYAL NOISE BRIGADE show. she had her head shaved. through a series of coincidences, we ended up hanging out. she wanted to have sex with me and i said no. one night we were at my apartment, laying down together and watching THE LOST BOYS, it was comfortable and cozy and nice. i had to drive her home after the movie. we were heading towards the door and we both sorta stopped in the kitchen. in the darkness, by the moonlight through the curtain-less window, i leaned down and she looked up, and i kissed her, softly and gently on the lips. it was just a couple of seconds. but it made my whole body flutter for the rest of the night.
a couple of weeks later i moved back to massachusetts to get away from a hometown that fucked me up so bad that i ended up kissing a fifteen year old. (for the record, at that time, i may have been the only boy my age that she ever met who DIDN'T try to fuck her -- that girl did some living).
number 3 // lisa franklin : art school girl
there was no specific kiss with lisa. for about six weeks, from the time we met, all we did was kiss, caress and hold each other in magnificent ways until we fell asleep each night. i can't recall any one incident, but there was just a general, all-consuming wondefulness to our every moment spent in the dark. no matter how fucked-up or stressed-out i felt, it all dropped out of me the minute i felt her fingertips on my skin. lisa was the most sensous person that i had ever met. i could've touched her body for days at a time. her touch was so precise, that she could run her fingertips up and down my ribs (the second most ticklish part of my body -- and i am MAD ticklish yo) and send me into these crazy bouts of ecstasy...
but, alas, she was a hippy and i was a punk. when we stopped kissing, nothing worked-out between us.
after about two months, we had sex once. it ruined everything.
number 4 // leah the heartbreaker : first kiss
we had been dating for three weeks. she opted to sleep at my house the night we watched DAUGHTERS OF DARKNESS (too late to take the train home, etc). we slept in a pile of blankets on a tile floor (i had no bed at the time). we layed in the dark for about an hour, talking to and caressing one another (it had taken me this long, just to feel comfortable putting my hands on her, having physical contact with her). she asked if she could kiss me (i was too nervous to make any move whatsoever). i said yes.
it was as if her lips sent sparks of electricty through my body. my chest felt hollowed out. my fingertips trembled. my whole body was alive.
we kissed for hours.
it was glorious.
number five // janet : bold, brash and sexy
right after the leah break-up (right about the time i joined this site, in fact, you can read an entry about this kiss if you go to like my third entry) i started having more fun with my life, losing inhibitions and doing whatever the fuck i wanted to to have fun. i went to see THE KINGS OF NUTHIN' the very first night i bought my tight-ass rocker jeans and striped muscle-tee. two hours after being in the club i met janet and her friends.
she was my type. damn was she my type. pale skin. short dark hair. slightly androgynous. tight black t-shirt. tight black pants.
we danced on and off all night. at some point, i lost her and some DISGUSTING foul creature tried to do the "hump-my-leg" dance on me; i ran away and found janet again and asked her to fake being my girlfriend so the gross creature would take the hint.
after the show, we said our goodbyes, she was from maine and leaving town immediately, no chance for anything but a night of dancing together; a night of constantly finding our eyes on each other. i said:
"thanks for pretending to like me so that girl would go away."
she said:
"i wasn't pretending. when you asked me to do that, i just wanted to pull you in to me and kiss you."
i said:
"you should've"
then, she grabbed me by the belt and pulled my hips into hers and leaned into me with such class, elegance and style as she put her lips on mine, to slide her tongue between my lips...
and i was so blown away that i just froze mid-kiss.
that was one of the single sexiest things that any girl has ever done to me.
***
2004 was a bad year for relationships for me. most of it was spent trying to survive leah; the rest of it was just spent. i didn't fall in love every ten minutes but i didn't find anything that would last either. 2005 will be a year for kissing.
i want a kiss that blows away that list. i want to kiss a sensous girl with class and style who fits right in my arms and smells like sunshine. i want something i could trust. i'm all second-guesses and false-hopes recently. i lay myself on the line; i have no time for any games that anyone wants to play.
i have a few resolutions this year.
and they will come true.
resolve is one of my favorite words, it means: "the trait of being resolute; firmness of purpose."
what it really means to show resolve is to make a conscious decision and see it through to the end.
so, this year,
i will kiss a few beautiful girls and try to find one worth having a serious and meaningful relationship with. i will not sleep with whoever comes along just for the fuck of it; but i will pursue any girl who gives me that hollowed out and trembly feeling...
i will concentrate as hard on improving my aesthetic skills (drawing, color theory and typography) as i did on improving my business and marketing skills in the last two years.
i will tell stories with words and pictures: i will write and draw my own comics.
i will study muay thai and make my body and spirit harder and more fierce. i will push myself to the limit and force myself to accept greater levels of pain and exhaustion.
that is all.
tonights party was nice. thanks so much to blondie and strio for being such great hosts. too bad if you missed it
, i had a good time ringing in the new year amongst friends...
***
i saw THE LIFE AQUATIC with STEVE ZISSOU today. i was dissapointed. i will give you my official six-word review:
a meandering facade of lifeless characters
hopefully he will learn whatever it is that he wanted to learn from this film and his next one will be an improvement and not a step back from his previous work.
***
oh and lastly a major thanks to mydogfarted and crazyanimallady who hosted myself and The Pants at their home wednesday night and took us out dancing and fed us pizza and were a total great time to hang out with. it was extra fun because i am slightly allergic to cats and they have TEN FUCKING CATS in their house. how crazy is that? you can't even IMAGINE how many cats ten equals when they are running around a house! and strangest of all, their house doesn't smell like cat!
they were so cool that they actually de-cat-ified the guest room for me...
seriously they are so great. we went out to a sketchy club in passaic, new jersey where we met up with derceto (who was wearing an awesome misfits t-shirt -- the one i hacked apart and stitched to the back of my vest) for some dancing. crazyanimallady and i got to dance to "rio" by DURAN DURAN and few other select favorites. she was fun and as for mydogfarted, you've got to love a guy who not only doesn't get stupid-jealous, but INSISTS that you dance with his wife! except for the smokiness of the club, it was a great night, The Pants and i danced ourselves into exhaustion... but not so much so that we couldn't magically spring back to life and literally JUMP onto the dance floor when Polly Styrene's voice shouted out of the speakers "OH BONDAGE, UP YOURS! 1! 2! 3! 4!"
seriously, the fact that they have been married for eight years, to me, is totally fucking cool. they are a rad couple. gives me hope for the future...
(on behalf of The Pants) thanks again guys!
***
and finally, i spent my holiday money that my mom insisted not go to bills on the following:
DVD's:
1. MAN ON FIRE
2. ALIENS
3. LAKE PLACID (yeah, what of it?!)
4. NIGHTBREED
CD's:
1. The Adicts : Collection (2 - discs)
2. Joy Division : Substance
3. Old Mans Child : The Pagan Prosperity (black metal!!!)
COMICS:
1. The Complete Sequential by Paul Hornschemeier (holy crap batman! my favorite indie series collected in one gorgeous hardcover? the best part is that i didn't even know it was out! or that it was being made!).
2. the three issues of the mini-comic TAKE-OUT by Raina Telgemeier that i did not have (including the very first issue
).
***
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2005
(fuck 2004)
with love,
your pal,
jordan // BuckyKatt666
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