Well another sunday and its not going as good as i havee hoped. Only good thing that happened was elvis came home from Hawaii from her honneymoon, man i have missed her, I can't to go visit her, now just gotta make time to get up there.
So I caught wind my Ex may be moving to texas, so i sent her a email and told her i think its time we got our divorce done and finished. And I don't know why, but it broke my heart, and i relived everything again in my head. I feel like shit, i feel like everytime i msg her or talk or whatever i am ripping her heart out and it kills me inside. Im trying SO hard to be a better person and to move on and be happy. Its hard for me to talk to friends about this cause im always the strong one, its hard for me to open up, ill give out just enough, but never open up the valve and let it all out, i dont think i know how. I dont know what to do anymore, maybe by writing these blogs out is helping me get this shit off my chest?
Im still lsiting to that cd everynight...i think it really does hypnotise me, cause i cant get 2 mins into and and i fall asleep and i always wake up right at the end. I have been craving more healthy food so maybe it is. I don't weight myself so i dont know if im loosing weight or not.
Well...in the corse of writing jsut this little bit, i feel a little better. Im gonna go cook some dinner. Take care everyone
So I caught wind my Ex may be moving to texas, so i sent her a email and told her i think its time we got our divorce done and finished. And I don't know why, but it broke my heart, and i relived everything again in my head. I feel like shit, i feel like everytime i msg her or talk or whatever i am ripping her heart out and it kills me inside. Im trying SO hard to be a better person and to move on and be happy. Its hard for me to talk to friends about this cause im always the strong one, its hard for me to open up, ill give out just enough, but never open up the valve and let it all out, i dont think i know how. I dont know what to do anymore, maybe by writing these blogs out is helping me get this shit off my chest?
Im still lsiting to that cd everynight...i think it really does hypnotise me, cause i cant get 2 mins into and and i fall asleep and i always wake up right at the end. I have been craving more healthy food so maybe it is. I don't weight myself so i dont know if im loosing weight or not.
Well...in the corse of writing jsut this little bit, i feel a little better. Im gonna go cook some dinner. Take care everyone
Man I'm sorry thats soo crap
That is the worst feeling in the world.
Well I think your cool, and I really hope that things start looking up and you feel better.
xoxo
T