boomer76

Fuck you idiots. Stupid people, ignorant people you all suck. What the fuck. My girlfriend broke up with me last tuesday. Whoever read my journal but didn't comment, already know this. Do you wanna know the reason? Because I'm too nice and she can't handle it. What the fuck, fuck you. I normally wouldn't have a problem with this reason, I know I'm a nice guy. But how many fucken times and I gonna hear "Your not what I thought you'd be." or "Your just too nice and I can't deal with it. I'm overwhelmed."??? Just because I have long hair, tattoos, piercings, and ride a harley and drink beer and whiskey means I'm an ass or whatever it is attracts them. I have never dated someone and said even to myself she's not what I expected. I have been surprised by girls I've dated by them doing something. But to have a preconcieved notion on who someone really is, is a fallacy. What ever happened to the idea that people want to be with someone who is nice?? Well I'm fucken sorry if my parents raised me to be this way. But I'm not gonna change for anybody. Do you think even for a second that I will compromise what makes me me?? I am who I am and for good reason. I can look at myself in the mirror every day and see a good person. I'm not saying I am the best, or even the nicest. I just know who I am and I'm not trying to be something I'm not. Yes, I'm a biker, yes I'm a gentleman, and no, they might not be two qualities that you would expect to find together. I can't and will not change who I am. I can change my look, interests, location, but I am still me. I will still act the same, talk the same, be the same person. Furthermore, I can't stand going out and meeting women who expect to get one thing and one thing only. Earlier this week I met a girl and yeah we made out and then when she asked me for my number I wouldn't give it to her. She actually got mad. Just because I kiss you doesn't mean I want to fuck you. I love and recently miss the touch of a woman. Her soft hands on my stomach, chest, back, wherever. Most of the time, non sexual parts (obvious sexual parts, not eroginous areas). Cuddling, holding hands, kissing are things I crave, not sex. How can I think of sex all the time when I forget to masturbate?? I'll get turned on at work flipping through a porn mag and at the end of the night while trying to sleep, remember that I was gonna masturbate. Oh well, I forgot now I'm tired. That happens all the time. I'll go days or weeks without jerking off. Some of my guy friends think that is unheard of. Why is it so hard to handle when a guy respects you for you and not what you do or how you look. Genuine kindness when all that is expected in return is a "thank you" and a smile is a hard concept to understand. Why do I date?? Mybe hoping to stumble on the one chick that can appreciate my ways?? I wonder why I even care. I have an incerdible 4 year old son who is the world to me and the best ex a guy can ask for. I dated one girl who I let into my sons life and luckily my son was so young that he never asked about her. Now she's dead. Am I supposed to let every girlfriend into my sons life so they can get attached and disappear?? I don't think so. If a relationship lasts a couple months, I'll think about it. Never from the get go. So now that I'm done ranting for no one to comment on this............for all you people who think you rule, think you're original, think you are better than everyone else........FUCK YOU!!!! There is someone better than you, someone who's done it already before you thought of it, and someone who is above you in charge so you don't rule, you're not better, and you're not original. You are you and fucken be happy about it. Be true to yourself and don't ever compromise the very makeup that makes you who you are. Fuck everybody else. And for those of you who think men suck, FUCK OFF!!!! You cannot generalize a whole gender because of a couple jerks. If this rant made any enemies, sorry. Talk to me, and if then you think I'm a ass, so be it.

And not one part of this was aimed at any member of this site. As far as I can tell you all seem very cool.