boo1

Guess what everyone! I'm up to 120lbs! Wowie! I sure hope that the baby doesnt weight 20lbs...teehee. Im sick of dependent people. I really am. I know that I myself am quite dependent (on some people) and I'm a big baby and whatnot. I know this! But its with people that I know!!! Like my ex for instance. I know I cant very well rationalize my craziness....but if I didnt hear from him for like a week (and we had been talking prior to that), I would be just in emailing him a few times asking what was going on, or calling him, or whatever. COS I'M HIS WIFE! Even if I wasnt his wife, I've known him for about a year. I've known him long enough and gotten close enough to him for it to be just. However, I've been getting emails and journal posts lately from people who I have known for maybe 3 months, and really dont talk to that much, asking "Why wont you talk to me? Why do you hate me?" and such shit. It pisses me off and I'm not sure why. But it really does. I think maybe because of the fact that this person is threatening to leave the site, and saying guilt trip shit like "I thought I was your friend" to get me to talk to them. I just dont understand why someone would feel that they need to threaten someone or guilt trip someone until they talk to them again. But some people are indeed like that. And some people are like me. I just dont give a fuck. I got like....33 people on my buddylist. I talk to about 5. I sure as fuck dont email any of the 28 people I dont talk to like "why do you hate me?!" It makes no sense. But tough ass, if i dont wanna talk to you, I'm not going to, and there is NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT, BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I'm a tad bit worried. My ex hasnt called me yet. He had court this morning...and he was worried that he wasnt gonna be able to get it continued. He said that if he couldnt pay his ticket that he wouldnt go to jail, he'd just lose his license. Which is STILL bad b/c I cant get him to come pick me up if he has no license! I could get a ride there sometimes I guess, and I could drive myself home with his car, but he'd hafta drive it back to his house. Its too risky. He makes me so fuckin angry!!!!! MEHHHH!!!! My little friend said he's going to Myrtle Beach for his birthday to see fuckin Marilyn Manson, and that I should go. ::cries:: the angelboo wants!!! But I'm too poor to afford tickets, I dont wannabe away from the ex (assuming we havent killed each other by december), and I'm going to be very pregnant. I'm not sure how good an idea a manson concert would be. Cos I kept on getting slammed into the damn amps @ the Orgy show. SO....hm. I dont rightly know. Oh well. My mommy cooked something yummy yesterday so I'm going to go heat it up and eat it. Cross yer fingers that my set will go up soon!