boo1

ok so I'm at my mums house. FUCK the mental institution for not letting me in. When you really need some fucking help, they basically tell you to suck it and smile. well FUCK YOU! im surprised i didnt go back to my husband. I called him last night cos i missed him and he sure fixed me! told me i cant have any of the shit i left there til I payed HIM fuckin $200 b/c i left him w/o money. hello, he has snatched so much fookin money out of my hello kitty bag (that he bought days before we got married....so?)...this is called REINBURSMENT. suck it. my mother called him and told him that we're coming over to get my stuff and bringing the cops....i found that kinda amusing. i loved him so much you guys. he was my everything, and i was so proud to call him mine. and now im so fucking ashamed, and i know he's not missing me, just my paycheck. and i feel like screaming, and dying and all this shit at one time. i dont ever wanna be in love again. it hurts too much. i want you all to come over to my house and bring me flowers. maybe i'll just date girls again. i'll just have my baby, give it up for adoption, and then kill myself. I'm so fucking lost.