i've come to the realization that I really am sick of my husband and I'm no longer attracted to him. for once, I dont wanna fuck. i really want nothing to do with him. I'm also quite sick of every fucking one and every fucking thing around NC. whats in Portland anyway? theres alot fo SGs there, something good must be going on. its not NC. I guess thats whats so good about it. I just wanna ditch this life I have and start a new one. I'm going to start looking in to moving to Maine. I wonder if there are any Walmarts up there that I can transfer to. i hafta get up in about 5 hours. i should prolly try to sleep. oh well.