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I am SO irritated.
I was having a delightful day . . . I just bought a new Chutes Too Narrow album, because I left mine in California and I can't wait another month for it. I had a lovely time at the gym. I ate a cupcake. Things were going well.
And then I get this email from my mom. And I love my mom. She's one of the coolest moms in the world, and I really really appreciate that. But dios mio, she can fucking annoy the hell out of me sometimes. It's complicated and hard to explain. It's like we're really close, but there's a lot of drama surrounding money . . . and there has been since my dad died when I was 11. And my friends are baffled by the way my mom reacts to situations involving money between us. In a lot of ways, it's very non-parental. Which I'm generally ok with . . . I like that my mom and I have more of a friendship than a typical mother-daughter relationship. But it ends up being really difficult when she doesn't act like a grown-up. I don't know. . . this would take so long to explain . . . I'm just a little bitter about it right now. And as always, it comes down to her sending me a confrontational email criticising something I said to her, and it ends in my apologizing for being inconsiderate. Even though I don't think I was. I don't know . . . it's just hard to always have to suck it up and concede to maintain a relationship. . .
Oh, and I'm beginning to scare myself. I'm becoming an awkward, pimply, dungeons and dragons-playing fat kid (apologies to any of you who fit that description). And by that I mean that I'm starting to spend a frightening amount of time in front of my computer. I feel like I'm quickly losing all social skills. . .