I am SO irritated.
I was having a delightful day . . . I just bought a new Chutes Too Narrow album, because I left mine in California and I can't wait another month for it. I had a lovely time at the gym. I ate a cupcake. Things were going well.
And then I get this email from my mom. And I love my mom. She's one of the coolest moms in the world, and I really really appreciate that. But dios mio, she can fucking annoy the hell out of me sometimes. It's complicated and hard to explain. It's like we're really close, but there's a lot of drama surrounding money . . . and there has been since my dad died when I was 11. And my friends are baffled by the way my mom reacts to situations involving money between us. In a lot of ways, it's very non-parental. Which I'm generally ok with . . . I like that my mom and I have more of a friendship than a typical mother-daughter relationship. But it ends up being really difficult when she doesn't act like a grown-up. I don't know. . . this would take so long to explain . . . I'm just a little bitter about it right now. And as always, it comes down to her sending me a confrontational email criticising something I said to her, and it ends in my apologizing for being inconsiderate. Even though I don't think I was. I don't know . . . it's just hard to always have to suck it up and concede to maintain a relationship. . .
Oh, and I'm beginning to scare myself. I'm becoming an awkward, pimply, dungeons and dragons-playing fat kid (apologies to any of you who fit that description). And by that I mean that I'm starting to spend a frightening amount of time in front of my computer. I feel like I'm quickly losing all social skills. . .
I was having a delightful day . . . I just bought a new Chutes Too Narrow album, because I left mine in California and I can't wait another month for it. I had a lovely time at the gym. I ate a cupcake. Things were going well.
And then I get this email from my mom. And I love my mom. She's one of the coolest moms in the world, and I really really appreciate that. But dios mio, she can fucking annoy the hell out of me sometimes. It's complicated and hard to explain. It's like we're really close, but there's a lot of drama surrounding money . . . and there has been since my dad died when I was 11. And my friends are baffled by the way my mom reacts to situations involving money between us. In a lot of ways, it's very non-parental. Which I'm generally ok with . . . I like that my mom and I have more of a friendship than a typical mother-daughter relationship. But it ends up being really difficult when she doesn't act like a grown-up. I don't know. . . this would take so long to explain . . . I'm just a little bitter about it right now. And as always, it comes down to her sending me a confrontational email criticising something I said to her, and it ends in my apologizing for being inconsiderate. Even though I don't think I was. I don't know . . . it's just hard to always have to suck it up and concede to maintain a relationship. . .
Oh, and I'm beginning to scare myself. I'm becoming an awkward, pimply, dungeons and dragons-playing fat kid (apologies to any of you who fit that description). And by that I mean that I'm starting to spend a frightening amount of time in front of my computer. I feel like I'm quickly losing all social skills. . .

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lordmuppet:
Sorry about that with your mum. I just stopped talking to my mother about anything important to me and we get along better this way. As for the dungeons and dragons ... welcome to the dark side. Some friends made me do it once or twice when we were quite stoned and it was kind of funny. Well my hippie is a terribly sweet half puerto rican girl just graduating from Berkeley but originally from Santa Cruz. I don't get to stay over any more because I'm got bitchy and moody twice and she's dated some nasty guys before so its started ringing alarm bells for her. There's a picture of her in my pics folder that I grabbed off the internet off some article about a scholarsip she won (she's a terribly clever hippy).
lordmuppet:
its sucks last girl I met (my pixie) was three/four months before I had to leave for a year to the states and I also started getting involved with my hippie at spring break and now I have to go back in six weeks.