He's gone. He left about 2 hours ago. I cant describe how i feel, i think im still in shock. When they called the flight was when the tears stared to well in my eyes and then he hugged me and kissed me and i didnt want to let him go.
I promised that i wouldnt hystericlly cry until he had actually left and i did that. As he was walking past the window to the plane i lost my shit. I sobbed. And then i laughed because as he stood on the stairs just before walking into the plane he did a rockstar pose and waved at us all. It was brilliant.
I just feel so strange. He's gone. He's not here anymore, for the next eight months i cant hug him or kiss him. I cant call him just for the hell of it. I cant stop by after work for no reason. I cant sit with him when he's had a bad day and just be there. No more arguing about where we're going to have tea. No more of anything.
I know i'll be fine. I just dont know when.
I promised that i wouldnt hystericlly cry until he had actually left and i did that. As he was walking past the window to the plane i lost my shit. I sobbed. And then i laughed because as he stood on the stairs just before walking into the plane he did a rockstar pose and waved at us all. It was brilliant.
I just feel so strange. He's gone. He's not here anymore, for the next eight months i cant hug him or kiss him. I cant call him just for the hell of it. I cant stop by after work for no reason. I cant sit with him when he's had a bad day and just be there. No more arguing about where we're going to have tea. No more of anything.
I know i'll be fine. I just dont know when.
im leaving the country in may and leaving the boy ive fallen for behind... we only met in october, hooked up in november, and now things are perfect and yeh... its already making me sad thinking about leaving. nows a good time to go out with ya girlfriends i reckon!