Hey guys,
Just wanted to make a post about what's going on in my world.
Just had a big chat with my mum.
In 2001, my mum had a stroke and since then has had a chemical imbalance in her brain so she suffers from quite a bit of depression. To add fuel to the fire, the last few years of her life haven't been uneventful. She's gone through a few jobs which she has loved and her father passed away last year.
Unfortunately my mum and I have never shared a fantastic relationship until recently when I was able to talk her into seeing a counsellor (she had no psychological help after her stroke) and then we arranged combined sessions to work out our issues. So were on a good role and things have been starting to unravel. I feel like I finally am beginning to have the relationship with her that I always wanted.
We began talking today because her counsellor believes she needs to see a psychiatrist in order to get the anti depressants she desperately needs.
However, her GP won't recommend her to one because he doesn't believe in them
My mum is on suicide watch, she has life line ring her twice a week to make sure she's not dead, if she doesn't answer the phone they call the cops. She told me today how she doesn't want to get out of bed and waits for the hours to tick by so she can go back to sleep. And you know when you can tell the difference between someone who's telling you this because they truly mean it and someone who's just sprouting shit...this was coming right from the depths of my mum's heart.
I started to cry because she doesn't want to call me when she's feeling this way because she doesn't want to lump everything on me, which I do understand.
But she's also my mummy. If it's a choice between calling and talking to me for a while or topping herself I know what I'd like her to choose.
Everything seems to be working out now. A friend of hers has a boyfriend who's very high up in the mental health department (or something to that effect) and will be getting her the help she truly, truly needs. Goes to show the universe listens.
I just wanted to come on here and vent all this, I'm not angry. Just a bit worried and upset for my mummy. And this is always the first place I go to.
I've also redone the post so i could put a piccie of me and my beautiful mummy on here. Thanks to natatree for her lovely comment, thanks hun
Just wanted to make a post about what's going on in my world.
Just had a big chat with my mum.
In 2001, my mum had a stroke and since then has had a chemical imbalance in her brain so she suffers from quite a bit of depression. To add fuel to the fire, the last few years of her life haven't been uneventful. She's gone through a few jobs which she has loved and her father passed away last year.
Unfortunately my mum and I have never shared a fantastic relationship until recently when I was able to talk her into seeing a counsellor (she had no psychological help after her stroke) and then we arranged combined sessions to work out our issues. So were on a good role and things have been starting to unravel. I feel like I finally am beginning to have the relationship with her that I always wanted.
We began talking today because her counsellor believes she needs to see a psychiatrist in order to get the anti depressants she desperately needs.
However, her GP won't recommend her to one because he doesn't believe in them
My mum is on suicide watch, she has life line ring her twice a week to make sure she's not dead, if she doesn't answer the phone they call the cops. She told me today how she doesn't want to get out of bed and waits for the hours to tick by so she can go back to sleep. And you know when you can tell the difference between someone who's telling you this because they truly mean it and someone who's just sprouting shit...this was coming right from the depths of my mum's heart.
I started to cry because she doesn't want to call me when she's feeling this way because she doesn't want to lump everything on me, which I do understand.
But she's also my mummy. If it's a choice between calling and talking to me for a while or topping herself I know what I'd like her to choose.
Everything seems to be working out now. A friend of hers has a boyfriend who's very high up in the mental health department (or something to that effect) and will be getting her the help she truly, truly needs. Goes to show the universe listens.
I just wanted to come on here and vent all this, I'm not angry. Just a bit worried and upset for my mummy. And this is always the first place I go to.
I've also redone the post so i could put a piccie of me and my beautiful mummy on here. Thanks to natatree for her lovely comment, thanks hun VIEW 11 of 11 COMMENTS
Good to hear yor doing alot better than before though
xoxo
B....
and yay for seeing pan's labyrinth. lemme know what you think.