I love how broke i am...i've put blank CD's on my wishlist. I'm putting most things i need on my wishlist, woohoo!
Go me. I can't wait for the day i have a job and randomly can buy people shit off their wishlists. Its so nice to make people happy.
I've had a strange week. The ex has been floating around in my mind alot. I'm feeling really surreal because as I've mentioned before, when we were together I created this strange little world where I justified every bad thing he did and made excuses for everything. To a point where I knew the relationship was dangerous but I couldn't leave because I convinced myself that it wasn't as bad as I felt.
Since we broke up, that little fantasy has broken down and I saw the relationship for what it was and it broke my heart completely. So now I'm still getting used to reality and seeing how messed up things are. And today I needed a cuddle. And then I thought he was always there for a cuddle and he was my safe zone. Then I got all sad because was he really my safe zone or was that all just a figment of my imagination aswell?
I know I'm coming off like a total sane person with all that but I can't help. All part and parcel of a breakup. But I am glad I'm not one who choses to run from my emotions. Its what makes me stronger and a better person.
When we were together Nick would always criticise me for being unintelligent. I always thought I was rather smart so to prove matters, I've printed off some info for the basics of Physics. I've always loved hearing people talk about it and wished I could know more so what's stopping me? Absolutely nothing
Thanks to Argentum for being an absolute sweetie. He's one of the most genuine dudes on this website and I send him massive hugs for being so lovely and fun.
PHOTO'S!!!
Me, very drunk last weekend.
See!! Its true!! We do have kangaroos in our front yards. Granted its not tip top photographic evidence but still!
EDITED BECAUSE I JUST FOUND OUT: ON ANOTHER NOTE
I GOT INTO UNI!!!! I GOT OFFERED MY COURSE!!!! I DID IT!!!!
Go me. I can't wait for the day i have a job and randomly can buy people shit off their wishlists. Its so nice to make people happy.
I've had a strange week. The ex has been floating around in my mind alot. I'm feeling really surreal because as I've mentioned before, when we were together I created this strange little world where I justified every bad thing he did and made excuses for everything. To a point where I knew the relationship was dangerous but I couldn't leave because I convinced myself that it wasn't as bad as I felt.
Since we broke up, that little fantasy has broken down and I saw the relationship for what it was and it broke my heart completely. So now I'm still getting used to reality and seeing how messed up things are. And today I needed a cuddle. And then I thought he was always there for a cuddle and he was my safe zone. Then I got all sad because was he really my safe zone or was that all just a figment of my imagination aswell?
I know I'm coming off like a total sane person with all that but I can't help. All part and parcel of a breakup. But I am glad I'm not one who choses to run from my emotions. Its what makes me stronger and a better person.
When we were together Nick would always criticise me for being unintelligent. I always thought I was rather smart so to prove matters, I've printed off some info for the basics of Physics. I've always loved hearing people talk about it and wished I could know more so what's stopping me? Absolutely nothing
Thanks to Argentum for being an absolute sweetie. He's one of the most genuine dudes on this website and I send him massive hugs for being so lovely and fun.
PHOTO'S!!!
Me, very drunk last weekend.
See!! Its true!! We do have kangaroos in our front yards. Granted its not tip top photographic evidence but still!
EDITED BECAUSE I JUST FOUND OUT: ON ANOTHER NOTE
I GOT INTO UNI!!!! I GOT OFFERED MY COURSE!!!! I DID IT!!!!
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*pats on the butt*
now go out and wow em.
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