bonnieblu

Hey all,

Still in Ireland, leaving tomorrow for scotland which is really exciting! Have spent the last 4 nights staying with my family which has been absolutly awesome. I've been to Kiladre, Galway and out onto Inishmore for a night and met so many amazing people who wouldnt let me leave without a full belly and lots of cash. They seriously are some of the loveliest people i have met.

On another note today is a pretty aweful day. My grandad's cancer has spread to his stomach. Two weeks ago he was fine, now he may not make it till i get home and i am so so frightend. Ive never had to experience a family member so close to me dying, im a really lucky gal. Now my only and beloved Grandad i have left imost probably will die. On a 5 hour bus trip today i spent a third of it staring out the window while the tears ran down my face. I wish i could have been at home for this so i could be there for my mum. There all in sydney so she has no family at home except me. I just wish this didnt have to happen now but things never go that way, do they.

But im trying to be happy and go on my way, its just a little bit, as i said, scary. God knows what the future brings but i hope that it doesnt hurt to much.